i sometimes think of quitting...
By djmarion
@djmarion (4898)
Philippines
March 3, 2008 3:36am CST
my family is struggling financially at this moment, in fact we've been in this situation for almost 2 years now. i am just 23 and yet i suddenly became a breadwinner. you know bills can really be so annoying to see. electric, water, phone, internet, credit cards. i feel i can't get through it anymore that i sometimes think of quitting but i have no choice i am the only one with a good pay in our family so i became the automatic breadwinner.
it's really hard since i have 10 mouths to feed and no one in my family can be able to help. i tried different side jobs just to earn more for them but it seems my effort was still not enough. i work and work and i felt like i age 10 years more than my real age because of financial and mental torture we're encountering.
sometimes i want to unwind but i can't afford to have a long vacation from my job since it would mean no salary and thus no money to spend for my family.
i really feel bad, i know no one can help me,i just want to release my emotion here.
7 responses
@danzer (2723)
• Philippines
3 Mar 08
It happens to most people. In our life, there are times when we think of quitting. But we know it's not the answer, though it's the easiest thing to do. I understand the situation you are in, and I pray that you will become successful financially one of these days! Keep on going even when it's tough.
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@johndur (3052)
• Pasig, Philippines
5 Mar 08
you are really amazing to do all that...but dont you think its a way of spoiling them so much?i bet there are family member who are already capable of helping you by finding a job....you should not shoulder everything...you must tell them that you were only helping them temporarily and not forever which means that they should also exhaust their effort to earn for themselves and also help other family members...
@aseretdd (13730)
• Philippines
4 Mar 08
Don't worry to much... you are not alone in the boat... i too am having financial difficulties... my husband was suppose to be working abroad by now...but he is still waiting for some papers to arrive... so right now... i am the breadwinner of the family... bills can be overwhelming at times... and i just hate the fact that i can no longer afford the luxury that i used to enjoy before...
But i always think positive... the cycle of our live will not remain in the downside forever... something good is bound to happen... i just hope that other members of your family will help you out... the key is to work together...
Just don't lose hope...
@braveheart07 (2601)
• Philippines
4 Mar 08
I know what you are feeling right now. What you're experiencing right now is part of our life and we cannot really avoid these things. Everyone do also experience such kind of situation.
Don't feel sad about being a breadwinner in your family. I am pretty sure your parents and other family members were so proud of you.
In fact, they were lucky to have you. You are such a nice person. You really care a lot for your family.
You do everything just for the sake of helping your family even though it will cost you a lot of sacrifices and hardwork on your part.
Keep going and I am sure God will reward you soon for your kindness and hardwork.
Take care and have a great day! :-)
@beckinsale (35)
• China
4 Mar 08
Yeah,I'd had your kind of idea before.Finally I gave it
up,but I don't know why.Maybe that's life.
@star2316 (41)
• United States
4 Mar 08
I know what you mean yet im only 21 and it is a never ending cycle i used to worry so much about everything to the point i just wanted to lay down but i have such a stronge family that they keep pushing me to be the best and with out them i dont know what i have done between being a fulltime student and having a full-time job i have no time to done the fun things i feel like im 40 lol but im better now and you dont need to worry God works in very wierd ways he will repay you in time just keep doin what what you are doin you are a great person!
@williamjisir (22819)
• China
3 Mar 08
Hello dear djmarion. I understand your current situation as the breadearner of the family. It could make you feel very pressed sometimes with such a big family to help support. Even I have a small family of three, I have the great pressure from it as I am the backbone of the family like you are in yours. But as to me, I have to work hard to support my famiy as I am the father of my child and husband of my wife, which makes me think that I have the duty and responsibility for my family as always. Although sometimes I look forward to getting old enough to get retired so that I can feel more assured and relaxed at home when my son will be old enough to earn his own bread and even help the famliy. That is some luxury to me at the present time, but my son is still too young before he could go to work in many years. He is still too young. No other way for me but to work as hard and as old as I can. hehe. Dear friend, I hope that you can keep up and feel good every day so long as you think that your siblings will grow up soon and start their work some day. Good luck and take care, djmarion.