Now DEPRESSION#??

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From my last discussion Should i leave or should I Stay now its come down to Depression. In continacion folks .... What do you do when all your senses are blocked, your heart says one and the mind reasons another and your body does not want to move. Its like all three are in some war. You are hurt deeply, your mind gives you reasons to hope and cope up.....but yet you cannot accept it and then your body creats a block in a way of self defense. I could not stop sobbing, I tried to commit sucide. This is terrible I feel ashamed of myself ( i have always been strong and rational) and could not imagine that i could even do this, when I have kids depending on me and love me so deeply. Where do i find the resources to find happiness again. My stepdaughter living us us has caused us so much of pain, that i love my husband but cannot live with the pressure of problems she creates. Have tried counselling but did not convince me. Im confused