can a heart forget
By georgette1
@georgette1 (184)
United States
March 15, 2008 2:40pm CST
the hardest thing that will always be with me and i can't seem to forget, is when my mother was on her death bed she had asked me for a drink of water and i was not alowed to give it to her.because of her condition. I have lived with this for the last 4 years since her death how can you forget something like this and go on with your life. I just can not get the picture out of my mind that my mother wanted a drink of water and i could not give it to her. It's as if like something was just pulled from my heart and i can't get it back.
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@pallavi76 (20)
• India
16 Mar 08
Hi Georgette. How is it going. I can understand how it feels when you lose your near and dear one's. Well I have also lsot someone forever whom I loved and was devoted for the rest of my life, my husband. We got divorced, and it was a great loss for me I felt. When the case was filed at the court, our daughter was just about a year old. Now she is of 6 years age. All those moments right from our engagement till the last day we saw each other in the court remains in front of my eyes. I just cannot erase those memories from my heart too. I think this is something that no one can do till the end of his life. This is the hardest thing that will always be with me too and unforgettable for the rest of my life. Life is like that. That's what I have understood and accepted the fact about it and moving on and on, for my daughter.
@georgette1 (184)
• United States
16 Mar 08
Good i'm glad that you are moving on for your daughter because she looks up to you as her hero, her friend and her mom. And she deserves nothing but the best.
@jpso138 (7851)
• Philippines
16 Mar 08
Well, I am sure that it was very difficult thing for you to do. But you have to remember that you are not at fault and what you did was for her benefit. Sometimes, we have to do things for our love ones and hurt them though our purpose is for the good. I think that is not a mistake and is something that we should do sometimes. Well, I'm sure that your mom understands and that you should let go of it.
@georgette1 (184)
• United States
16 Mar 08
you what your mind tells you is different from what yur heart tells you. My mind tells me that i did the right thing, but my heart tells me that i refused to give my mother a drop of water to quench her dry throat.
@CarolaMuller (1210)
• Italy
16 Mar 08
I don't think a heart can forget. You must go on, 'cause I'm sure that she knw that you couldn't give it to here, okay? Be strong. For you, for her.
@georgette1 (184)
• United States
16 Mar 08
you are right a heart can't. thank you so much for your thoughfull words/
@djmarion (4898)
• Philippines
16 Mar 08
i understand how hard it is to be in your situation, even if i were in your situation and i refuse to give my mother a glass of water then die afterwards i will definitely be in a deep regret for the rest of my life. i don't know a thing to suggest that could make you fell less guilty but maybe you should stop blaming yourself and go on with your life. your mother who is now in God's kingdom will surely happy now and i bet she did not hold that fact against you.
@georgette1 (184)
• United States
16 Mar 08
It's not that I didn't want to give her the water, It's that i was not alowed to give her the water because she had a storke and the doctor and nurse told me she could choke on it. But what hurts and hard for me to get over is that the person who gave me birth and raised me and stayed up nights sitting next to my bed when i would be sick and cried when i cried and laughed when i laughed, and gave me and my brothers and sister her unconditional love, never wanted anything in return asked for something very easy and simple to give and i could not give it to her. and I hope that you are never in my situation. Thank you for your thoughts and help.