Do you ever feel like life just gives you too many knocks?

Oh there's many a times when I've felt everything is just going badly. It seems to happen to my family every year toward the beginning of the year. I am a continual optimist, at least outwardly anyway. During alone times though I often have "breakdowns" where I feel utterly hopeless. (I think I'm secretly depressed, but don't show it). But as soon as I'm in the presence of someone else, I swallow my feelings and carry on. Perhaps it will be my downfall someday. I'm just taking it one day at a time. And I try to verbally teach my children to look for the positive in life. It's there, it's just hard to spot sometimes.

well i guess that is what life is about, it gets bumpy one too many times. but we still have to get ready. we have to always go straight to our destination. when something bad happens, i think of it as some obstable.. but i dont think tat i deserve them all. ot in anyway cause i have lived my life the best possible way i know, no persons hurt, no people troubled by my presence.

I feel like this so much! Over the years it seems to me that everytime something looks like it is going our way then we get knocked back twice as hard. I have even said to my hubby that I am sure someone sits up in the sky watching us, and when it looks like we are getting to happy or getting too secure they send us a blow to take it away. Its even got to the point where I try not to be too happy or get too excited about something, in case it is noticed and something bad happens!

I feel the same, I have been getting one thing after the other. Every time I want to surface up, I feel I am dragged down again. Sometimes I wonder if I will be able to enjoy my life before I am gone. I feel with you.