Who's to blame?
By slipknotfan
@slipknotfan (57)
United States
March 19, 2008 6:15pm CST
This passed month as been VERY hard on me.I was told that i have a Pituitary Tumor.That was on the first of March.It has been very hard for me to work because of this. So there goes the money. Now i am stressing because i can't pay my bills.I am becomeing more and more depressed.The doctor said that is because of the tumor,but i still feel it.I bought a house one years ago.I can't pay for it now. So now i am setting here thinking. Who's to blame for all of this.I am a christin. I beleive in God. I beleive that he doesn't give you moer then you can handle. Well i am trying him that i can't handly this,but i don't beleive he is listening,because things aren't getting any better.I find myself asking that question "WHY!! Why me? What did I do to make this happen?" I am blessed with a grerat husband and tow awsome sons,and then he makes it so hard for me to take care of them. Why give me something that i can't care for.Why make it so hard for someone that beleives like me?I feel like i give and give but i am not getting anything back when i need it.When ever someone needs something i am alway there.I give what i don't have. Now i am asking for help and i feel like no one is there.I know that God has a plan for everyone and no one know what that plan is. But when times are hard like this,it is hard to still beleive that.It is hard to beleive that someone that is you father would make it this hard when he doesn't have too. am sure that i am not the only one that feels this way. If you have felt this way before,how did you handly it? Because i am blameing God right now and i don't like doing that.
2 responses
@soulist (2985)
• United States
15 Apr 08
slip. It's ok to feel the way to do and ask the why me question there's nothing wrong with that, even Job questioned. But the key is don't blame God. You are right God doesn;t give us more than we can handle, but the rest of that is more than we can handle alone. You can handle this but rely on GOd. Call out to Him, Cry out to Him. I'm only 25 and have cancer I went through the same questions and depression. I called out to him and cried out to Him. Have faith, pray, God is there He hears you even if you don't like He is. I'm here also if you need someone to talk to who knows the feelings feel free to email me: weissj8@yahoo.com.
My pastor told me something when I told him I felt like I was blaming God. He said "you're not blaming God, but the cancer." I don't think you are blaming God but trying to find someone or something to blame for what happened. God does have a reason for this. Maybe he sees you being able to minister to others because of this. That's what I'm doing, I'm a minister for a cancer support group.
Please if you need anything some to pray for you, some to rant,rave, to feel free to email me. I'm here my sister.
@lolalolacherrycola (899)
• United States
20 Mar 08
It sound like you are having a really tough time right now and I can see why. To get such devastating news can really rock your faith.
God will not burden you with more than you can handle. You are fortunate that you have the support of your husband and children.
Continue to pray for understanding. Speak to your doctor about filing for disability to help with the money issues.
God Bless you and yours. Have a wonderful Easter.
