torn between the drug and him

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decision time.... so my boyfriend just recently got nailed for drugs by the law....his 2nd petty offense, but not taken lightly in the small town i live in OVERPOPULATED with cops who are out to get anybody associated with illegal drugs. my problem: i have been doing the drug for over 10 years now. i will totally admit to addiction and would love to quit knowing the harms it has on my body.....but i still enjoy it and therefore don't WANT to quit. so anyhow.....my boyfriend is making a decision to quit all together to save him from further trouble down the road....which is a very wise decision. he has to pretty much.....unless he wants to spend life in jail....probation...yada yada. well, he is mad at me because i am having a hard time with the fact that he expects me just to drop everything cold turkey just because he HAS to. he is quite a bit younger than i am....and I had nothing to do with him getting into this lifestyle....but when he chose to do so, I warned him that he should really re-think things and if he chose to go ahead with it, that he really really really needed to be careful and that he probably didn't know what kinda crap he would be getting into if he did get caught. well, here we are......he did get in trouble....and i warned him. so seeing that i really don't wanna give up my lifestyle that i have led for the past 10+ years i am having an issue with him just expecting me to give it.....just like that......ahhhh.... i wanna support him. but i also am not the one who screwed up and got into trouble....he has done this drug for a mere 3 years maybe....me at least 10. grrr......i really don't know how to feel about this i guess.....