the grass is brown....

You're thinking negative thoughts my friend. You're letting the negatives "bother" you. You think you're making no headway in life and all you're doing is getting by. In other words, you're stuck in a rut. This is nothing to worry about... we all hit on the situation at certain points in our lives, but you need to dispense with the negatives and adopt a more positive mental attitude. Here's what I suggest you do about it. Each day, discard with one of your usual activities for a certain amount of time, say 1 hour - 11/2 hours. Do something different with the kids... take them to the park, or for a walk in the woods... have some fun for the time you've alotted, be at one with nature, laugh, run and play with them... think about what you have at your disposal and what you can make of yourself if you only try... think how lucky you are to have two??? beautiful, healthy children. You achieved that... two really positive things which you brought into your life. When you go to work, try not to think of it as a mundane, routine job. Think what you can do to spice it up, make it more enjoyable, so that you're willing to go in each day and make a little more progress for that day. Take positive steps. If this doesn't work for you, then take some quiet time, on your own, perhaps out in the countryside away from everything but Nature and the Elements. Contemplate your inner self, your soul, and what you can do to nourish it. When you search your soul, you will find the answer and you'll know where you want to go. Take positive steps to get there, and I guarantee you will grow in spirit, and be more satisfied with your life and your achievements. Only you can do this, and you owe it to yourself. Brightest Blessings.

Sounds like you've forgotten yourself along the way. You need to take some time out, just a few hours and do something away from the husband and kids, even if it's in the house, but in another room such as taking a long hot bubble bath or going somewhere and getting a massage or your hair done or even just to go see a movie with a friend. SOMETHING other than the same ole routine over and over again. It would burn anybody out! and you're no exception. Also to see the grass as being brown, it makes us appreciate it when it turns green again. Like the saying goes, absense makes the heart grow fonder!

Keep on discussing new experiences on mylot and ask for suggestion for your tensions.If you really want toenjoy life then just think about it in positive way and try to find the interest which suits you and enjoy it.