I feel terrible...

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today my baby son who is 19months old was I have to say really but really testing me. In the morning he threw the tantrum over the breakfast, he was fine with it till he eaten half of it and then suddenly within the seconds he started to scream he wanted to watch TV and play. Then we went to playgroup and he was fine there untill we came home and he had to walk up the stairs to our apartment. First step and he wanted me to pick him up. I had full hands with shopping and bags and mail, so i told him to walk by himself that i cant carry him. He went bizzare and nearly fell down. I tried many ways, like if he want to watch tv he has to be up on the top of the stairs as he is quite young to understand properly. After five minutes standing there getting hot with all those bags and in the jacket and the screaming baby i just couldnt stand it anymore...i felt like to grab him and pull him up those stupid stairs. At the end i exploded, threw the bags on the floor, picked him up and took him upstairs to his room, put him in the cot and left him there screaming, while i was crying in the living room, thinking how bad i am, and how i couldnt control my anger. I wish i would be more patient and maybe keep on trying to convince him to walk up by himself, but it was getting too long. Do you think i made bad decision, and at the end he got what he wanted and i carried him up? I dont know, but sometimes i find it hard being all day home with my baby especially now when he hit terrible 2 years of age.