What does he think??

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I fall in love with a boy 9 years ago.In fact,it's unilateral because he didn't know until last year when I told him.In the first three years,we just were good classmates,even not good friend.I just could see him quietly.When we graduated,we keeping touch by mail and message.Then we know much more about each other and I become one of his best friends.Last year,after 8 years' wait,I told him everything,but he laughed,said he can't believe it and hope we could be good friend forever.I'm so shamed and there are a long time I can't face to him.He mails to me sometimes but when I reply,he's gone.We keep the relationship like it for about one year,sometimes contact,sometimes has no words.Today,I heard from our classmate that he has got a good girlfriend but told everyone not to tell me!!!What a shake news!! My friends,could you be kind and tell me what does he think?Does he like me or just won't lose a girl who loves him so much??