my baby girl nevaeh is my miracle

well as sad as this is going to sound this is why I have my username as Remembering1996. In 1996 I found out I was pregnant I was almost 3 1/2 months along and I went to the doctor and they checked me out they took some blood and made it out to be like all was ok. I went home and a coiple of days later I get a call from the doctor's office saying "we need you to come in tomorrow morning we need to speak to you regarding your tests" I asked if everything was ok and they said "we'll talk w/ you tomorrow" I went in the next morning to find out by the doctor that there was something wrong w/ the baby. They tried to tell me she had something called ostreogenisis impertfecta type 2. which is the brain is paper thin and the bones are like twigs. I didn't want to hear this from the doctor so I went for a second opinion. They told me the same thing. I was 2 weeks befor the 5th month and I had to have her terminated for the only way she was living was off of me she wasn't going to survive if going the full 9 months because of what she had. May 6,1996 I went in to have the procedure done it tore my heart out I cried for when she was born even though she wasn't alive I got to hold her and she fit in the palm of my hand. I named her Susan Marie. I never forgave my self for that and wanted to just die for what I had done but had no choice. I begged god to not be mad To hold her close to him that I would see her one day. I asked god to let me have a baby I could call my own. Two years later I got pregnant w/ my son Jeffrey who was born Aug 1998 and he is my miracle baby for the doctors told me I may not be able to have a normal child. My son is 9 now and looks, acts, and does all things normal. He is my miracle baby. If it wasn't for him I wanted to give up on life. I am blessed to have my son in my life.

Both my girls are adults now and I am a grandmother with another baby on the way and it is more than precious. I love to have contact with my daughters and can chat to them for hours on end...not to mention the coffee dates which we have ever so often