why do the strong always have to be?
@10fingaz2getha4eva (287)
United States
May 9, 2008 6:22pm CST
we arent allow to cry or show any sign of weakness
no down time no break we are expected to bare all the sorrow with indifference and listen and accept
the short stick as our sword..its unfair im not allowed to have feelings to be scared to be upset or hurt
but when i do as im expected again im shuned for being insensative.. i.. who shallow my agnst repeatedly in order to be the rock im insensative i am?!?!..yea wait thats my place...how many others out there who suit the armor daily?
im no weak person im no punk tho to be human would make me feel that way so i keep up the charade...and just die on the inside
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@tessah (6617)
• United States
10 May 08
youre certainly not alone in this.. as the "rock" and stability it seems of all of those around me.. im expected to be there, listen, hold up, counsel, comfort.. but when im the one thats falling down.. those that im being crushed under the weight off.. scatter.. and leave me to fall alone. sound familiar? i was told once the reason for this, is that those who have grown dependant upon me to be their shelter from the storm, cannot handle the reality that i can falter too. somewhere in their brains theyve convinced themselves that i am infallable, that i dont hurt, that i dont cry.. that i dont feel. logically.. if i didnt feel and didnt care.. would i be there to scoop them up when theyre falling? no i wouldnt. and being left to deal with my own things in solitude, only adds to the pain im already dealing with in the first place. so you have my sympathies, and my support. and if you need some shelter.. theres someone who understands perfectly how yer feeling.. with a little bit extra to give if you wish.
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@10fingaz2getha4eva (287)
• United States
10 May 08
bravo thank you its good to hear some one agree rather than say maybe im making too much out of it...it does get hard believe that ive gotten to the point im just cold shouldering people now i mean they gotta see me as a person too if they want me to them..its crazy thanks again for your response:)
@tessah (6617)
• United States
10 May 08
ya mean the half-assed placating pat on the head with the quick change of subject back to their own troubles because they simply cant possibly conceive that YOU have feelings too? or theyre just too selfish to give a damn that you do because theyre too self absorbed.. whichever their reasoning.. like i said before, if they looked at it logically, if we were so cold hearted we wuldnt be the ones constantly supporting and picking them up all the time.
over the past couple years, ive taken measures to erradicate from my life those who did more harm to me than were helpful. the lifesucking energy draining parasites can reassemble themselves on their own now. that may actually sound heartless.. but theres only so much one can do for another before self preservation needs to kick in, and compassion for ones own self is necessary.
