outgrown your friends?

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i think i have now they bore me. they try to be random but have only proved to be predictable is it really so hard to be yourself? not show off? i could drop them..sure for me making friends is easy but i dont want to go that route most people i meet tend to be the same way anyway so no point really do i have a set reason for starting this discussion? not so much besides venting..i needed to .ive gotten to the point where i hide from my friends..no really i hide have people say im asleep or gone or m.i.a when i go out side i duck below fences hide beside cars it has gotten that deep because the farther i distance myself the closer they try to get even to the point of sitting outside waiting for me involving me in every waking moment of thier day i try to tell them hey im busy im lying but i try to be sensative to thier feelings i dont want to hurt anybody i just dont feel the way i used to im not into the trouble making the whole sence anymore im 24 i got kids cliping my style trying to be like me and want to hang out with me im talking ages ranging from 13-20 they think im cool they try and talk like me walk like me wear things i wear present themselves like me its crazy my friends ive had for ever all they care about is getting high(po.t) and goin to the bar an mixing up all the gay drama i feel like im in a soap opera with them like all my smiles are forced "hey such an such are goin here and there but suches ex might be there" blah blah blah who really cares..and my str8 friends they all got like 50 freakn kids i mean no offense i love all thier kids but hell they cant ever hang out and have a adult moment i feel for them and always end up feeling like im taking time better spent with thier kids when they say "hey come over" most of my friends are good parents exsp considering how they themselves were raised i do want to hang and shoot the proverbial movement but i dont want to intrude so i dont heck... in ending maybe i havent so much out grown them as some have outgrown me and others havent grown at all and yet and still the rest are just to high to do anything else besides get in trouble and gossip