My mother is an alcoholic

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This is going to be a long one, so bare with me! My mom has been drinking since I could even remember. She sits on her computer every night talking to people she doesn't know and drinks until she can't even function. I've recently talked to my aunt and she said when I was about 5 years old she had a bad alcohol problem, and helped her get out of that. For a while she stopped drinking, and everything was great. Then her grandma died when I was 12, and everything went sour. She was so close to her, I remember her lying in her room for hours just crying, it was really hard on her. Now that I'm older I try and help but it never works. I went and talked to her one night after work and of course she was drunk. I tried talking to her about her grandma when she brought it up and tried making her feel better but again everything went awful. She yelled at me to get out of her house and she never wanted to see me again. I felt awful and I got into my car ready to leave, and she walked outside with her keys. She got into her car and I opened the passenger door and tried to talk to her but she put it in reverse, hit the gas, and it hit me with the door and I fell down. I told my brother and he followed her, so she basically wouldn't kill herself or anyone else, and then brought her home. I just hate that my mom hates life enough to do this to herself everyday. I wish so much that I could just help her but I can't. I've tried to get her to get professional help but she doesn't think she has a problem. I just don't know what to do anymore. But I don't know what I would do without my mom, shes the best thing I have in my life right now, and I don't want to lose her. I'm not looking for sympathy, just for advice. It's easy for me to talk about my problems on mylot, not so much in real life. Thanks for your help in advance.