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I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for 1 year and a half, we don't live in the same place but he has made a lot of effort to help me move to study in the same town / country. Today he wrote me an email saying that he wants to break up. It hurts like hell, then we had a talk on the phone, he says that he is scared that I will not be happy once I move to his town and that it will make him feel bad to see me not happy. He thinks that I am depressive sometimes, but I know why. It is because the place where I am now is a very small town, most of my roommates are never here and I feel alone and it makes me often sad. But I pulled everything together because I knew that I want to move to his town, where I know I will enjoy myself more as well as being closer to him. He has so much fear and stress right now, I don't know if it's because of his exams but it came as a shock to me that he should say so. We talked on the phone afterwards, he was crying, confused, even asked me to call him again just to talk to him. In the end we didn't talk the second time, he sent me a message saying that he was too tired and wants to talk another day instead. I am in so much shock and pain, so much that I almost hurt myself. I don't know what to do anymore. University holiday will start soon and we'll both be off. I kept repeating to him that I want to see him before we go off, but he is scared, scared that we will hurt each other more, however, i don't think it is right for him to use email to break up instead of saying it to me face to face since he was supposed to come here next week, as well I wonder if he really knows if this is what he really wants. I want to know your opinion about this, I havent been at peace, i've only slept for 2 hours, I am very scared that I will not see him before we go off on holiday...