what is the first thing that comes to your mind, when alone??

I think about what I plan on doing with the rest of my life. Ever since I was younger I've always lived in the future because that's all that I was concerned about. Times have changed, though. Now I can't seem to see beyond tomorrow. The little hope that I had when I was still in school is floating away from me more and more every day. When I'm alone thinking I tend to have dark thoughts. I don't like it when they consume me.

"Will she ever come back?" That's the first thing that comes to my mind when I'm alone... I think about her all the time... I reminisce about our memories together... the best times... the worst times... and still wonder why it never was a happy ending... I'm still waiting for her to come back... but I'm so tired... I waited and pursued her before to win her heart... and I did... but it didn't last... it was a complicated situation... wherein I was forced to defend her dignity rather than wish to defend my own... we were never officially together... but I guess all was a bluff... I always wished to call her "MINE" but out relationship being unofficial made it hard for me... I was jealous of the guys around her... I was jealous of each and everyone actually... I was jealous of her exes... yes I was totally insecure... because she can't tell the world that she's already taken by me...

Goodness!How I wish I had the time to be alone lol! I am a busy working mom, mother to 4 kids, running a homebase computer business. @4am were busy preparin the breakfast and when the kids are gone, here comes the clients! The only chance that I am alone is when I go to comfort room and before I can think of anything, my 3 yr old son is knocking on the door... Probably if you asked me 15 yrs ago, 'd say that whenever I'm alone and lonely, I think of havin a family but now that I have one, I will never wish to be alone again..

I feel bore when I am alone. So,the first thing that comes to my mind is how will I spend my time. I think of a good way of timepass,for instance,listening to music ,reading books,mylotting or surfing in internet.

When im alone janice the first thing that comes in my mind is to check my MYLOT...hahaahahahaha!im crazy !lol!I guess I am bcoz Im addiected now in mylot..!

"Do aliens actually exist in our universe? " this is the first thing awalys come to my mind. I am keen on considering about cosmic space. I often make a hypothesis that we human,our earth might be merely some experiments taken by some superior species outside this universe, maybe they are just looking at us and doing research on us now!! I know it's deep :)

The very first thing that comes in my mind is what good things I can do today that would benefit me and my fellow men? (naks!). Nah, I would usually do a wrap-up in my mind of the things I planned, my goal status, and whatever it is that I need to do to get into getting or reaching that goal, be it an immediate or long term goals. There are other things that would sometimes get into my mind when I'm alone, but I'm not sure if it is allowed to talk about it here in this wholesome discussion hahahah!, just kidding. Keep posting