Do You Dislike Me Now?

You must've not seen my latest. Did I say my latest? Yeah I sure did. Girl, when is it going to end? When everything that can go wrong does?? Gee mee moses!! I've had years that were bad but this one seems to take the cake! The last one was 2000. Enough already!! What is God trying to do? Put all the bad things together? Do you know my car is still in need of repairs? Of course, money is the issue thanks to the gas prices and places we've had to go has dried us up to a prune!! Not to mention the vet bill. Geeze!!

Well the beginning of last year was a dousy for me too...that's when I suddenly got a notice from SSI to tell me my benefits were to be cut off and that I had an overpayment of $4,910.oo and needed to pay them back...yeah..at the time I had exactly $5.71 to my name!

Ohhhh yeah, I remember that!! Wow. That had to have put a few white hairs in your head to add to the spinning!! That's incredible!! I'm so glad that you were able to straighten that out. What a dozer is right!! Did you ever get the apartment transferred to your name without the rent going up? AND did you finish your "spring" cleaning? I haven't, mom went down with the stroke and that was the end of that. I did get most of it done but not all of it and hopefully in time I'll still get it done. Time will tell.

That is very understandable. I went through a time that every time the phone rang I cringed! I knew it had to be bad news and it usually was. THIS TOO SHALL PASS! It did pass. You will make it through it, I am so sorry that you and your family are having to go through all this and I know if you let all of this , it will make you sick. You don't have to be strong, let us carry you through. We are praying for you and will be here to help you through it all. You are not alone and don't forget that! We all love you and are here for you! God bless!

Thanks, I know it'll pass but getting there is the hard part. I just wish I had some help with my mom but I don't. I'm on my own except for my elderly dad. I've emailed everyone on my email list and even moms asking for help and only one person responded. Grant you, they're all 4 hours drive away but still, a day or two couldn't hurt anyone so to give me a break and peace of mind knowing that she'll be ok but as it is, my dad has to take over and do it all himself when I'm not there and it's hard on him, more so than me for I'm younger but I have lupus which is, more or less, just as hard for me. And you know, the whole time she was in the hospital, I kept them ALL updated on her progress and at times I was asked for an update because I couldn't get back to them for days at a time and when I had time, I updated them but when I need something, no one is there. Boy, we sure do know who are friends are when we need them, huh? Don't get me wrong, I'm not talking about friends here on mylot because everyone is so much further away but the one's that my parents knew and so on. People are too much into themselves and to hell with everyone else and that's just not right.

I just don't understand this mamacathie. My balloon his just about out of air. It's like having a bruise that keeps getting hit over and over and over again. It's making me sick as well as scared to hear the phone ring or anything else for that matter. Makes me wonder, ok, what's next?

Oh thank you Thoroughrob! That's very much appreciated!! I sure as heck am NOT trying to get attention for it's just not me. I love having friends but I hate being the center of attention... does that make any sense? lol Besides, having all these true life nightmares is no fun. No fun at all.

Sweetie I know you are not believe me I have been there for many Years and it does get you down and at times you think why am I here? Is this what I have been put on earth for? You want to just throw it all and run somewhere safe but you know you can't One minute you think there is no way out and then a surge of Strength comes through for a few Days till you have drained that Believe me Sweetie I know and if I have got through it for 35 years I know that you can and it will go on like this for a while one thing after another but then it calms down and it does calm down eventually I promise you that so stay strong Big Hugs

I believe you gabs!! Trust me, I DO believe you!!

Awwww gabs!! You're such a doll!! I would hug you silly if I could see you in person!! Thanks for the reassurance for it's so needed right now!! It seems never ending, one thing after another that it seems I'm making all these things up but I assure you that I'm not, it's all real and happening and I just wish it would end so I can see brighter days ahead but right now all I see is this darn black cloud hanging over me and my family and I just wish it would go away.

Yeah I agree. One tends to blow up after a while of keeping it inside so talking about it does give a sense of relief. I just wish all this true life nightmares would end and end soon.

I can't believe it either gemini_rose. It's hard for an outsider to comprehend and to be on the inside of it all is just mind blowing. I agree that it has to get better. It just has to. However, I do wonder now what's next but I'm too afraid to ask it out loud. Thank you for allowing me to vent!! Hugs to you my friend!

I hope things turn around too for I've had enough of this, bad happenings. one right after the other! (Like my expression's going to change anything... lol) I'm trying to keep my chin up but I'm hanging on by a thin thin thread!! ARG!!

I can understand where you are right now. But I still think that if you continue on thinking that you are a victim then it will continue to linger on you. Try thinking like "I will continue to serve my mother because I love to serve her", I will continue to love my brother whatever his situation right now because I love her". "I love myself that is why I will keep my thoughts as positive as possible and my luck is changing for the better for my loved ones and friends. I know this sounds crazy at the moment but always stay in that space of love I think it will do you good.

Hey sweets thats what friends are for - to help support you when you are struggling and to give a pull up if they can - not just to share the good times! Hugs and prayers with you and your family! xxx

You're so right mummymo! Thanks so much for sticking around and listening to me even though it's mostly bad things with good update a lot of the times but down sides too. You're a real friend!! Hugs to you!!

Well actually it IS raining down on me! lol But I understand your point though, try to stay on the positive side and pray that things get better. I'm trying to but let me tell ya, I'm hanging on by a thin thin thread!

Well, I'm not a part of the drinking scene for I've grown up and am married so getting drunk and dancing is out of the question however, not so bad a thought though!! LOL

Why don't we join a club and call it the 2008 bashing club? LOL I can't agree more!! 2008 has so sucked and it's been pure hell in a hand basket!! ARG!!