im so broken hearted...i did it again..
By lady11eve
@lady11eve (311)
Philippines
June 26, 2008 4:57pm CST
i am so broken hearted...
i dont know if i have been dump...or something happen to him...
but i cant stop thinking what really happen...for a month now he didnt bothered to email me or text me...this the first time he didnt care to contact,we been frens and lovers for two years,its a long distance relationship...but we didnt argue about anything...even the last time hes here wer so happy and i can feel wer so nlove.i never though things like this would happen.
i dont know what to do...im am so busy with my life and still this thoughts hunt me every seconds...i wanna forget about this for a while and im having a hard time...gosh i did it again...
all the time every day im listening to enigma's return to innocence to make me calm,
maybe i wanna find answers 'whats really going on?'
i wanna know if he sudenly just change and wanted to go on his way...
if its really the thing,why he couldnt just say it so i would not waste time to worry on him?...and so atleast i could stop guessing...
aaahhhhhhh....im so broken hearted.........huhuhuhuhu...
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17 responses
@dfollin (25351)
• United States
28 Jun 08
If your computer has crashed,then how are you talking to us?
@dfollin (25351)
• United States
28 Jun 08
Have you ever thought that maybe he is hurt or something in the hospital? Have you talked to anyone in his family or close friends that are local to him? I'd call them first or call local hospital's before I'd panic.
@lady11eve (311)
• Philippines
30 Jun 08
hes in US...and im having a hardtime to contact them...just tru email...
thats the prob i didnt ask for the numbers of his family...whooo...
@maryannemax (12156)
• Sweden
27 Jun 08
i am so sorry for what happened to you and for what it is that you're going through today. i know it's painful and that you're so puzzled.
let's just hope that he has a good reason for not being able to be there for you.
for now, all you have to do is focus more on what's important to you... studies? job? family? friends? and if one day, he apprears and wants to explain, just listen and then ask your heart if you still wanna go on with the relationship.
anne
@lady11eve (311)
• Philippines
28 Jun 08
hes next to my daughter...
he knows how i get worried to people i love,,,he knows worrying will keep me a wake all the time...
i really dont know what to think,im not the easy go lucky person,he knows i dont have tons of frens to hang out with,and supposed to be he already knows im worried about him ,and this zero response from him freak too much...
i will gain weight after these...huhu..
@underdogtoo (9579)
• Philippines
27 Jun 08
I suppose it's one of the joys of being in love. I am glad I'm no longer susceptible to that, butterflies in the stomach, staring at the stars, etc. I'm glad I'm old and don't have to enjoy those things anymore. He he.
@lady11eve (311)
• Philippines
28 Jun 08
thats good for you,,,haaayyy...
i been here before and now i did it again...after 2 years of my first break up he came a long...never thought and never planned to fall again...but i did...lol
@blackmantra_x (2732)
• Philippines
27 Jun 08
good day.. Just wait for a little while longer and avoid feeling broken hearted just yet, I mean maybe something came up that he needed attending and is too busy to call you. It might be something else aside from him wanting to break it up or go his own way. You said you're also his best friend and by that I think he'll open up to you or at least be honest if something do came up regarding your relationship. Good luck I hope he'll call you soon because I'm well too familiar with that kind of waiting.
@lady11eve (311)
• Philippines
28 Jun 08
i just hope its worth to wait...
hours of waiting for answers is too long already when you are worried...
but this words from you and other mylotters helps me...tnx a lot
@lady11eve (311)
• Philippines
28 Jun 08
how?...
im trying not to think about it,,,but those thoughts really knows how to bother me..
i know in time this will subside,,,i hope soon
@mjmlagat (3170)
• Philippines
27 Jun 08
It's a difficult situation you're in because you really don't know what went wrong-- everything just seemed right according to you.
But I guess you just have to put it this way: he is not worthy of you as a beautiful person.
Go on and get your life back..there are still other men more worthy than the one who left you hanging.
Stay beautiful and happy!
@lady11eve (311)
• Philippines
28 Jun 08
yeha... iknow what you mean...
but i dont wanna judge him that fast...i have to make sure...everyhting is ok...and thats the question now...how can i make sure,,,gosh
@celticeagle (165954)
• Boise, Idaho
27 Jun 08
Long distance romance is hard at best. He is fickle at best. Forget him. He obviously has no respect or concideration for you. he isn't a person worth your time.
@lady11eve (311)
• Philippines
28 Jun 08
huhu...i hope its as easy as that...but what if something bad happen ...
my conscience wont let me sleep.
@monaliu (344)
•
27 Jun 08
I can really understand your feeling!I even can't upset lose contact with my boyfriend one day.
Try to find another method to contact with him as soon as possible. maybe something happend. You are been lover two years and without any big unhappy things. I think he would not do something to hurt you...
good luck to you! believe him and believe yourself.
@lady11eve (311)
• Philippines
28 Jun 08
just as he promise before he wont abondone me...and he said he will not make things to hurt me...and in 2 years we never have arguments,,,just 1 very little mis understanding and we fix it in an hour,so this situation is really scaring me...tnx monaliu...its a big help...
@amenpukhraj (25)
•
27 Jun 08
Hey sweet lady i want to share my opinion with you if you don't mind.Well i know you were very frustrated or broken hearted because he isn't mailing you or i isn't being contact with you but don't get disappoint may be there are some works which grabed him or may be due to some reasone he couldn't able to be in contact with you.I know his rememberance never makes you feel happy you alwayz think about him but you have to manage your life and try to concentrate on your work also.Just give him one or two week more . If he will come that's would be an happiest day of your life but if he won't than forget it and try to be happy without him because life never stop for anyone.
@m18j7crystal (184)
•
27 Jun 08
Have you ever tried reaching out on him? I understand what you are feeling right now but come to think of it, if he care about you, then he would let you know what was happening to him right?
The least you could do now is to enjoy life and forget about him. I know it would never be that easy. It is but proper to think and care for some one you love but then again you cant be like that forever. Contemplate deeply. Is he worth it? I mean, does he deserve all your precious time? God Bless!
@lixiaos (17)
• China
27 Jun 08
try to remember the first few months you were together carefully.
when i read the letters i writed several years ago, i find i still love her. When you will be meet again, try to be what you were, and this will remind him his deep love to you.
don't worry, love is not means all to a man. he maybe busy with something and have no time or mood.
we are unwilling to express our love as time goes by, but it is still deep in our heart. when something remind us, we will find that it is still pure and valueable.
@marielagordita (76)
• United States
27 Jun 08
yeah he probably just try to run away from you, and reality.. dont pay him no mind.. dont stress him.. ask him once last time "whats goin on? are uignoring me? if u are just keep doing what ur doing then.." and leave it as that... move on
@lady11eve (311)
• Philippines
28 Jun 08
the last time talk is just last month,that was may first week...and wer so ok,,,hes putting up a new business,i know hes busy,but everytime we see online we really spend hours to talk...so did so strange to me...
duh...
@rsa101 (38126)
• Philippines
27 Jun 08
Yeah that is one hard thing you have to bear about long distance relationship. Someone may just fallout and you are sometimes left in the blue what happened. What weas his last text message with you. Did he give any hint that he will be gone for good or what? Can you go to his place and know what is going on or maybe call him? I hope you can get over it the soonest possible anbd the best way I think is really making effort contacting him and know what is really the status of your relationship.
@lady11eve (311)
• Philippines
28 Jun 08
his in Us and i dont have visa to go there...
im actually worried ,i should not like this but its really hard not too...tnx rsa
@thuynhu (661)
• United States
26 Jun 08
This is very odd thing to have happened to you. I know long distance relationships are generally hard to manage, but if you guys have survived 2 years, I don't know why he wouldn't contact you. I feel that maybe something happened to him, even though that may not be something you really want to think about. I just see it as a reason for him not to have contacted you in any way. From what you say about you guys being in love and everything. There just has to be a reasonable explanation. But I would have to say at the same time that just in case he has decided to stop your relationship don't move on just yet. Maybe you should give it another month. Have you tried to email or text him? Wouldn't you be able to call him? Do you know his family, maybe they know something you don't. Well I hope things work out for you.
@lady11eve (311)
• Philippines
26 Jun 08
we treat each other like bestfrenz too...things that you couldnt tell to your long time frens and family are very much open to us...thats us...and now...well i dont know,i email and text him hundred times already...calling him...but until now no response...its killing me...
haaayyy...
tnx thuynhu...i hope answers would come out soon.
@Jennious (30)
• Vietnam
4 Aug 08
I know how you feel. Well, just try to contact him first to see what's going on. If he can tell the reason for this, then should be ok. If not, there must be something between u guys. I hope it not the serious problem. Anyway, try to make yourself busy so that you don't think about it too much & always optimistic. Smile!