I'm about to give up.....
By fafinette79
@fafinette79 (943)
United States
June 26, 2008 10:14pm CST
Since my dad passed away in November of last year, I haven't enjoyed life at all. I have a wonderful husband and beautiful daughter, and know that I should be very happy. Everyday seems worst to me. It's hard to do things that I normally did. I'm on depression medicines and therapy, and it doesn't seem to help. Problems keep arising and bad things keep happening. The more my hubby and I work, the more it seems as though it isn't helping. I'm on the verge of giving up. I'm praying for more and some sign to tell me to keep going. I just understand it all. Once we get over one trial, here comes another tribulation right after it. Anyone knows how this feel and can give me some hope.
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@pixiedustforyou2008 (2422)
• United States
27 Jun 08
Hahah i just had this happen this past week... Being broke sucks it really does.. Okay we only have one veichel and the truck ended up breaking down and we have no money... so we could get it fix thank god the truck is back to health and pay day is monday... YAY
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@fafinette79 (943)
• United States
10 Jul 08
The future is getting brighter. We let go of one of our cars, so we down to just one. It's not really a bad thing, just must figure out a way to accomadate both our schedules. We did it for a long time before, we can do it again. I know God is watching us and making sure that we are going in the right direction towards a better future for our family. If I really get this job and start soon then things will be become better really soon. Not saying that money is everything, but it does help relieve the stress we have. I'm not giving up at all, I just decided to turn it all around and work harder. I pray for you all that are giving me hope and wishing me luck.
I love you guys!
I love you guys!
@knight_rlc26 (362)
• Philippines
27 Jun 08
It's hard to let go someone close to you. But, the thing is we ahould fight and optimistically live life everyday. though, we cant set aside that misfortunes in life/ we shuld be very strong enough. because if we will not do that, we will just makerself ourself sick.
i think we just accept the reality, and thenastart a new life and have or involve on other things or activity that can make us busy... and we should always pit ourselves to god because with him we will feel secure.
therefore, life is like a wheel and life is not colorful if there was no trials or tests on us...
@fafinette79 (943)
• United States
4 Jul 08
I'm fighting right now and trying to make the most of life. I'm not thinking about ending my life, but it would be nice to just sit and do nothing. Accept and not care about all the things that are wrong and going wrong. But, now that I know I can't just not care, I'm working as hard as I can to get things to turn around. Thank you for caring.
@knight_rlc26 (362)
• Philippines
13 Jul 08
be frim on whatever trials that come in your way... life is a journey that has an end... no matter how we love the person... we do not hodld his/her life... let us accept the reality that we just borrowed our life and anytime we will be returning it... just atand firm... remeber god is with you'
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@fafinette79 (943)
• United States
14 Jul 08
Yes, I know that God is with me and that things will get better. I'm working hard on making things more confortable for me and for my family. I think I was too concerned with how much I was making everyone else's life miserable, and not on how I can make my life more enjoyable.
@barehugs (8973)
• Canada
27 Jun 08
You are looking at life the wrong way. Instead of counting (and dwelling) on the negatives in your life, forget these, and be thankful for the Small Mercies. When you Pray, do not ask for anything, but count your God-Given Blessings and thank God for these. Do not look for more, but look for the silver lining in all things. Life is just what you make of it,(remember this!) we can create a wonderful life by dwelling on the Positive, and being Thankful.
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@fafinette79 (943)
• United States
13 Jul 08
I'm going to be perfectly honest....I thought what you said was a lot of bull. Thinking positive has helped me out a lot, but it was hard to do. I didn't have anyone around me to remind me of the positive. When I thought of my daughter, I thought of how much better things would've been if I would have given her up for adoption. When I thought of my hubby, I think about how much stress I must have put on him. Now, I look at all that I can do and be for them both.
@jalucia (1431)
• United States
27 Jun 08
I know losing your Dad had to be very hard and probably shook up your world. But, you must know that you are not alone. There are too many people to count that have lost a loved one, and probably just as many people who feel that once they get over one hurdle, there's another one right around the corner. (I know how it feels) You are headed in the right direction with therapy and your spirituality. Maybe if you joined a support group that would help, also. You said that you need some sign to keep going. Well your "sign" is staring right in your face, everyday ... your hubby and daughter. You have experienced the devastation of losing a parent, don't think about making your daughter experience the same thing before it is time. I think that if you talk to others who are in the same situation as you, keep talking to us on here and anywhere else you can get things off of your chest, you will feel your load lightened a bit ... possibly you will also find solitude in the fact that you are not alone. Be strong, take care of yourself and that beautiful family that you are so lucky to have.
(Oh, if you feel as if your meds aren't working speak to your doctor about changing them or trying something different. I have heard that these meds can do more damage than good - especially if they are not helping you)
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@fafinette79 (943)
• United States
13 Jul 08
My doctor has changed my medications and I must say that I do feel the difference already. I applied to a job that I think I will really like and will give me more self confidence. The job will also look really good on my resume. I would never think of doing harm to myself, but I do see where I was doing wrong. I need to be strong for my daughter and for my hubby. I also have a new therapist that is helping me much better than the previous one. 
I'm not giving up....I'm fighting as hard as I can and I hope that I come out on top.
@shakleelady (148)
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27 Jun 08
Yes, life can be rough, what you need is faith a good dose of faith that it will get better. Please take time to discuss how you feel with your pastor or priest and Remember "No weapon formed against you can prosper"....unless you let it. Please don't give up. I love you and God loves you!!
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@fafinette79 (943)
• United States
27 Jun 08
Give me faith in your prayers. I will talk to God and my therapist about getting my faith back. Thank you for being here for me and thank you for your response.
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@shakleelady (148)
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1 Jul 08
Hey Girl, Just checking in to see if you're OK.
Heard a song on the radio - a re-make from the 70's called OO-OO Child, done over by Donnie Mc Clurkin. See if they can play it on the radio for you. The words go OOOh Child, things are gonna get easier
OOh Child things'll get brighter.....some day we'll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun......some day in a world that's much brighter.
That's my wish for you.
@joy_pearl (49)
• China
27 Jun 08
I'm so sorry to hear your story, but I think it shouldn't be the reason to give up. You must have heard of the earthquake in Sichuan, China, not long before. During this disaster thousands upon thousands of people lost their family, lost the one which they loved mostly, but they didn't give up and relumed the hope of life. I am sure their life must be better.
Lossing relatives is really a heart rending thing, everyone would experience. But we should think more about the living. Your hope is just around you, a wonderful husband and beautiful daughter. Try adjusting your emotion(maybe go on a vacation will help) and believe youself, tomorrow is another day!
