Bud's Update!!

Hi budsr03! It has been a long while since I have seen you here. I am really sorry to know about your daughter. I know no amount of words can ever comfort you at this hour. I just hope and pray that you will find the answer you are looking for and may you find peace in your heart. I am really sorry my friend and I will always be praying for you. I also have been facing my own crisis and to tell you honestly, each day I live in fear. Faith is the only thing that keeps me hanging each day. It is not easy and there are times, so many times that I just want to give up..but at some point in each time of my weakness, I always hang on to my faith..even how little it is, it has kept me standing and fighting that soon everything will fall in its proper place in its proper time. Don't lose your faith my friend and I will be one with you in praying for all our unanswered prayers. Take care and God Bless!

First of all I'm very glad to see you here...you've been missed! I'm sorry that there hasn't been any answers of the how and why of what happened to your daughter or that they never found out who deliberately set fire to the house. Oh, yes buds..when things in my life were topsy turvey and I kept wondering why different negative things were going on in my life, the real biggie for me to hang onto was Hope...Hope that it just HAD to get better and that things wouldn't stay the same forever. Believe it or not...one song seemed to be my "anthem" during my rough times..It's a rock song by The All American Rejects, called Move Along--I don't know why but that song just got to me and helped me Here are the lyrics [i]Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking When you fall everyone stands Another day and you've had your fill of sinking With the life held in your Hands are shaking cold These hands are meant to hold Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong Move along, move along like I know you do And even when your hope is gone Move along, move along just to make it through Move along Move along So a day when you've lost yourself completely Could be a night when your life ends Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving All the pain held in your Hands are shaking cold Your hands are mine to hold Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong Move along, move along like I know you do And even when your hope is gone Move along, move along just to make it through Move along (Go on, go on, go on, go on) When everything is wrong we move along (Go on, go on, go on, go on) When everything is wrong, we move along Along, along, along When all you got to keep is strong Move along, move along like I know you do And even when your hope is gone Move along, move along just to make it through [x3] (Move along) (Go on, go on, go on, go on) Right back what is wrong We move along[/i] http://artists.letssingit.com/all-american-rejects-the-lyrics-move-along-mb3bpm6 Here's the video of the song at youtube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FSbGur1dz9k The music might not be you're cup of tea...LOL...but it's an upbeat song really and like I said when I was going through a very rough time in my life, for some reason the song "spoke to me"

I am so sorry about your loss. You are right about Faith being a biggy, without it i could never have moved past some things that have happened in my life. Also going to a counsuler did help a great deal by teaching me the tools to cope. It was hard for me to go to talk to someone as a matter of fact the first time i was dragged (yes, DRAGGED) i refused to even speak. Eventually i did start to open up and although it was the most painful experience i had ever been through it changed how i saw life and some horrible events that had taken place in my life. Just know that nothing will stop the pain of your loss but you can cope with it effectively and the all-consuming pain will get down to a manageable level whether you know the truth about how it happened or not.Because the point isn't how it happened but the loss of your child. Focusing on how isn't going to help you deal with the real pain of the loss. And what do you mean by "still here" do you mean on mylot or on this earth? because if you mean on this earth you need to stop and think about how that would make your family feel, losing you would not be productive for anyone involved, the ones you leave behind will feel just like you do now. If you are thinking in that way you REALLY need to talk to someone,NOW. Please do make that phone call, you don't even have to say anything you just need to listen until you CAN talk. The person that you call will understand and it may give you the inner strength to carry on. I would appreciate it if you would let me know that you are alright.