I feel so bad for my ex husband but really bad for my son.

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Last week my ex husband's new wife had his baby. She went into premature labor at 32 weeks. My ex-husband said, they said our son wasn't allow to see him.(Though I know this to be in fact a lie, because my sister had twins at 32 weeks and they let their two and 1/2 year old son in the NICU to see them. Our son will be 9 this year.) I got mad and told him that they make exceptions to the rules, and that Michael got to see the Twins when they were born at 32 weeks themselves. His son was born on Thursday June 26, 2008. Anyways I went on to say "Your son is fighting for his life, he could die, and Karl (our son) has the right to meet his brother, you should be concerned, because you never know what will happen." He told me he wasn't worried, that his little guy was strong and they took him off of his Oxygen. (This conversation happened on Sunday.) I still badgered him to talk to the doctor, and see about him just getting to look. Not hold or touch just to to see him. You never know. Today is July 1, 2008 and I was awaken by the phone. My ex-husband calling me, to tell him he won't be getting our son today, that his son died this morning, could I please tell our son. His wife was in the background cursing me, I guess he told her what I said. I have this ability that I can not control, my ex-husband knows about it, knows how accurate it can be. I say things, but really don't know why I say them and it comes out so passionatly when I say it, it surprises even me, because I don't even recall thinking about what is coming out of my mouth when I say things. I think is wife and maybe even him thinks I jinks them. I really wanted my son to have a brother. I refused to let him get fixed and I got fixed. I knew I was done have children as my son was my third child, and I knew I didn't wan't any more. If I take in more children, it will be the unwanted children from the streets. I also knew that there were major problems in our marriage and I didn't think it would work. I knew later on in life he might want another child and I care enough about him to want him to be able to do that if he chooses to. I was happy for him. I was happy for my son. He has always been the baby brother, he was no longer gonna be the baby brother anymore. To his sisters yeah he would always be, but to his fathers family he was gonna get to be the big brother, he had already bought him a little gift. My son is very gifted, when I went to tell him he had this sad look on his face already. I hugged him and told him how sorry I was but his baby brother passed on today. He says I know mommy, I been playing with him all morning. Then he cried, and said mommy I wanted to be a big brother so bad. I'll miss him. Then he wiped his tears, and said we'll be together again one day so its okay. Then he went and prayed. So here it is in a nut shell, I feel really bad for everyone involved. I even cried myself when my ex was telling me his son died. I feel bad for my son, and he seems to be accepting it well, though a little sad. He has seen and played with spirits since he was a baby, though I didn't understand what was happening till he start talking. I don't know if I should just leave him be with it, or should I try to get him express what he is feeling over it. I keep wondering if I am handling this the right was. My ex's wife is pissed at me for some odd reason, she was calling me every name in the book. I don't have no clue why, I have always been nice to her, though to be honest don't care to really get to know her and don't want to be friends. But She is pissed, and I have to figure, he told her what I said and now she is blaming me. How would you handle this, even without the weird stuff that happens?