in remembrance of my mother
By kerriannc
@kerriannc (4279)
Jamaica
July 4, 2008 12:14pm CST
I wasn't much active in MYLOT since coming back on Tuesday July 1. I was sad and unable to think that much seeing that my mother memorial was coming up which was on Thursday July 3, 2008. It is four years now my mother has past away and everyday it seems as if it was yesterday. That sharp pain that I felt on that saturday morning when the doctor called to tell me that she has passed away is still there. There are times I wish it was me who is laying down in that grave instead of her. But I keep telling myself that God knows best.
It is so strange living back home without her and so it was heart rending to be here on Wednesday and Thursday. My dad call me this morning and this is the reason I am here now. I cannot believe that I would be living with out her and seeing that it is four sad years. I know that she is resting but I truly miss her. She was my best friend. I could go to her with any problems and she was always encouraging me. No matter what I decide to do. She is always there to say that when you try and you think it is your best then it is your best.
Mama I love and miss you.
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@redkathy (3374)
• United States
4 Jul 08
It has been 9 years since my mother passed. I was in the room with her, sleeping. Just at the final moment, God shook me. I woke upon her last breath. It had been a five year ordeal! So, I feel your pain.... What my mother and I had will never be again but can never be taken from me or YOU!
Your mother has taught you well I see because you honored her here and shared you pain for the world to see! Keep looking up and God with guide your path. One day it will be your turn and that is when you will see her again! I will say a prayer for you today 7-4-08
@kerriannc (4279)
• Jamaica
4 Jul 08
Hello there redkathy, thank you for the prayer I indeed need it. Thanks alot.
@nupats (3564)
• India
4 Jul 08
hi dear i feel very sorry for u....there is no replacement for parents..it is a loss forever..parents love us selflessly and your mom sure must have left satisfied that her child loves her so much..shall pray to God to give u strength to overcome this tough phase...may she rest in peace and u pls take care..
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@kerriannc (4279)
• Jamaica
4 Jul 08
Oh Nupats thanks for your words of encouragement. My friends keep telling me to let her rest but they don't understand what we had even while she was alive I didn't myself understand until she is gone. Sometimes it is when one taken from you, you understand the value of it. I miss her so much Nupats words cannot describe what I am going through.
Thanks alot.
Kerry
@cherriemae (3370)
• Philippines
7 Jul 08
ohh... i'm so sorry friend.. i know how you feel coz me and my mother is really that closed too, and i can't really imagine the time that we will got into that kind of experienced like yours.. our mothers is our true friend, our shoulder to cry on, our buddy.. dont be so sad coz i'm sure she will become sad too wherever she is now.. just pray.. God Bless..
@ch88ss (2271)
• United States
8 Jul 08
I am so sorry to hear that you lost your mom 4 years ago.
Losing someone love you is like a wake up call for others to realize that they need to tell those around them that you love them and appreciate them.
I better call my parents and tell them I love them and forgive them for making me cry so much
@kerriannc (4279)
• Jamaica
20 Jul 08
Yes it is good when you can tell your parents that you love them. Sometimes I feel hatred towards my father and whenever I am away from him I call and see if he is o.k. I think I love him but is disappointed in him were I am concern. Before Mama stop talking she call me the Sunday Night and told me that she Loves Me and when I went and look for her the Tuesday because I was tired on the Monday evening, I find her stop speaking. I still remember those words as if it was yesterday.
It is funny when you have someone/thing around you and never appreciated it until it goes away or die. I miss her terrible but I believe that God knows bless.
Kerry
