Is this a forbidden love forever?
By huxleyss
@huxleyss (7)
China
July 5, 2008 1:04am CST
It forces me think that i'm a sinner time and time again before i write this post.
No,i am who i am ,and i wanna tell u the truth that ,yes,i am a homosexuality.
i feel such a shame,incomplete to expose myself in public for the first time ,whatever,who on mylot knows abouy me ,huh?
The miserable thing is in my country,this is totally a taboo,is kind of self-destruction if u dare to get it out.
i often feel confused and i don't konw how to do ,how to balance myself,it would be bliss if i was born in somewhere else.
i need your opinions ,or just need some talk ,u know,i can't take it any more for concealing my feeling,that is so hard for me .
3 responses
@howard96h (11640)
• New York, New York
5 Jul 08
Hi huxleyss, do not feel that you are all alone in your country, there are many people who share the same feelings. You need to search online for different groups where you can meet people and talk to them about your feelings and make new friends. Craigslist.org is one such place then look up your country and there are many different options for you. Good luck.
@howard96h (11640)
• New York, New York
5 Jul 08
The reason I mentioned the internet is to make the contacts and then meet up with people or groups where you live. I did not mean to only develop an online friendship.
@qhwater (392)
• China
5 Jul 08
yes, i think so only if you both believe in your relationship. there are so many examples that their lovers are not accepted by the partner's friends or families. but they both persist because they love each other deeply. and you know, some of them work hard and make a great success in the end.
now, homosexutality is accepted widely by the society.
@fwidman (11514)
• United States
5 Jul 08
First off, let me say it is a shame that you are feeling like this. I cannot believe you are alone there in your country, there must be lots of homosexuals living there. Look around, maybe on the net search engines, there must be somewhere you can turn to get some help or advice that would help you.
Although there are many that would consider you a sinner for your feelings, I don't, and you should not either.
@huxleyss (7)
• China
5 Jul 08
your words make me feel much better now:),thanks a million.
The big,crucial question is the pressure from my own family,friends,even this society i live in,all seem normal but i am an abnormal.
i'm afraid gay-culture will never be recognized in my surrounding in a short time,it means something unfortunate,sth despair,really.The only thing i can do is hide my feelings,deeper and deeper,until oneday i can not find the real me .
Thanks again for your kindness and patient explaination,May God bless u.
