how to be not lazy?

First of all start eating - and eat healty food. Your body wont function right without food. Second start getting exercise, it might be hard the first few weeks, but try to really force youself. after a few weeks you'll start feel a lot of new energy coming to you - believe me, I've been where you are now :)

I think there are possible cycles: - we feel (or we feel results) - we think - we do - we get results ... e.g. we feel hungry; we think food; we acquire food; we eat (then we feel that fullmess or satisfaction; then we do the action cycle) When anyone refuses to feel, usually there's no action. Perhaps the question is: "How do I feel about the outside world?" Is there something I dream of accomplishing? Perhaps there is a unique answer for each person... Anyone care to tell us about self-knowledge?