I am at the edge of the cliff...

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I am so at the edge of the cliff right now...I feel like life is not going well for me...I am so burdened with debts and each time I get to pay the other another debt comes along. I am so depressed about it. As some of you know I am a mother of 5. Basically, I pay for everything..as in all the expenses..bills..school..etc. My husband doesn't work and he basically don't try to get a job at all...and I have already stopped caring that he doesn't want to find one because I am fed up of it already. Anyways, I work full time and when my salary comes nothing is left of it because I have to pay my debts off and nothing is even left for groceries. On monday, it's my daughters pre-lim exams and she needs to pay her tuition and she needs to be in uniform on Monday which I don't know how I will pay for the tuition and get to buy her a uniform..she is asking me to buy her books for school as well and some other payments she needs for school too..Earlier the phone company came to our house and was asking me to pay for my late phone bill that was already cut. I begged him to let me pay on the 15th next month and he agreed. Then the mail came from the internet company asking me to pay them and it was a demand letter from their lawyer. Internet is already cut at home as well. In our place as well we don't have water and it's really frustrating because at times there's not even enough for bath. My food supply is nearly finish and we will run out of it soon. My little girl will also start school this Monday and I cant even buy her a little skirtI feel like I am carrying a very heavy burden..sometimes I just shrug it off and find ways..ways like borrow again money from my friend to add to the other debts I have..I also have 2 cards to pay and also the electric bill which I cant pay now that my wallet is empty. I was hospitalized last month and recently I feel I have became weak. I cannot even buy my meds.I even tried writing Oprah hoping she might be able to help me..(I am that desperate). I am also trying to get another job which will take off sleep from me if ever I get hired...I am a strong person and never give up but there are just those times that I feel I am at the edge of a cliff and ready to fall..If you know what I mean...I am not into luxury and dont buy anything for myself..I am also not a bad person but sometimes I feel I a being punished for something..They say things happen for a reason..and everything is just trials in life..I think I have enough of it. Why can't they give this kind of trials to rich people..They can handle it more than I can. If any of you knows anything that can help me out I would appreciate it. I cannot pay to join anything and I have tried all ptc, ptr, surveys in site and only mylot paid me..It is a slow process..Anything you have in mind? I hope anyone can help before the rocks below my feet falls off with me on it at the edge of the cliff...Thanks..