let love finds you

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“Don’t find love, let love finds you”. A quote that I will forever keep. Since I was in high school, I always loved the topics about love and relationship. It makes me feel good and satisfied. A magic filled my whole being whenever I heard a great love story. Sometimes I will imagine I was in a paradise with my partner, looking at the sun to set. A great fantasy that’s it. I really don’t know why I love “Love”. Maybe because I love seeing people very happy when there in love. But then, as I grow older, I learned that love is not just love. It’s not just happiness. When you fall in love, there’s a lot of things you will encounter. It’s either good or bad. You just have to be ready when it shoots you. Cause when love draw closer nobody can ever take that away from you and nobody can ever help you but simply you. I first encountered love is when I was in my third year in high school. I was caught by the gorgeous look of my classmate. I was really infatuated with him. But it only stays at that. That, I have a feeling for him. Nothing more, nothing less. But still I’m happy because we became friends. Days turn out to be as brighter as the sun. But because I’m still young, I thought love is just like that. Bringing you enjoyment. It was just like a fantasy. A dream that will only stays in my mind and within myself. I was head over heels in love with this guy. I didn’t even mind whether he knew about it or not. But I’m much happier when he found out that I have a crush on him because now I can express my feeling better and that I can be true to him. And he didn’t mind it too. He was such a gentleman and friendly person. My feelings for him stayed as I entered my fourth year in high school. I was totally hooked by his attractive eyes and good-looking face. But, the time comes when I thought really hard. Why do I love this person? Why do I’m so damn in love with him? He doesn’t even like me? I was really getting hurt. I cried at night without knowing why. I’m just hurt because he doesn’t like me. I’m completely wrecked. Until, another man came over me and cheered me up behind my isolation. And that was the second time I fell in love. It was not the same feeling I had on my first. It was really different. I had lots of emotions here. I’m completely burned out. Why did I said that? This is the time I first encountered how to be courted by. At first, it was absolutely fun. I was happy that I couldn’t describe how I felt. But as the days continue, I wanted to give up because a lot of people mistreated me and wanted us to be apart. I was really hurt at that time. I wanted to just fade away. And so, we ended up being just BESTFRIENDS. In the beginning, I didn’t mind that he was just my bestfriend because we acted like we have a relationship at all. In this time, I felt the “against all odds” in a relationship because we have to meet somewhere else just to be with each other so nobody could see us. Then, my love for this guy grew as the days continue. He was an angel sent from above for me because he was always there whenever I needed him. That’s why I’m much more in love with him that I can do anything for him. I almost gave my life just to save my feelings for him but in return, I didn’t get anything just friendship. I was obsessed with this guy. I was really blind when I fell in love with him. It was such a painful experience, crying every night for a person you love who doesn’t even love you at all. I was so stupid. I wanted to get rid off my feelings for him so when I transferred school, I prayed really hard for the person who I can love and who will love me for who I am. I asked for signs and it didn’t disappointment me. My signs always came true. So I used it to find my Mr. Right and then there he was, another man came into my life. I thought this guy is the right one for me because of the signs. So when he courted me. After a week, I answered him “yes”. Everyday seemed to be perfect. We were happy and we were beginning to know each other well. Although we have different attitudes and sometimes I don’t understand him, our relationship still goes on. And as we always talk with each other, little by little I got to know his true identity. People always think he is a snob and air headed person but deep inside he is not. He is very sentimental and in fact sweet. Maybe he doesn’t want to show it for people might use him. I learned a lot from him. He became my lucky charm. He always help me and advice me whenever I have problems. He taught me how to be strong and to not listen easily to the people around me. He taught me how to deal on my problems on my own. He taught me not to be a martyr to anyone. I’m just beginning to fell in love with him deeply until a time came when I felt there’s something wrong going on. I found out he wanted our relationship to last. He told me he was different and if we will still continue our relationship I might just get hurt in the end. And he doesn’t want that to happen so he wanted to end our relationship. He kept on telling me he was not good for me. That I was too good for him. I was really hurt but maybe this is the right way to do. Because, lately, I heard a lot of rumors that he liked somebody else and the worst is, she was my friend. Everyday as I passed him by in our school, I always control my emotions. I don’t want to cry. I always put on my mind that I am strong and that he was not my lost. I started avoiding him especially when I found out he was going steady with my friend. How could he do this to me and how could my friend do this to me. She knew very much that I love this person then in an instance I will found out that they were on. I’m really getting mad. I really wanted revenge. Things became complicated on me. I started to have vices. I was really angry. So when a chance came, I grabbed it. I played with them. But because from the start I’m not a bad person, I ended up my revenge. I don’t want karma come back to me. I started to forget him and just concentrate in other things. I started to pray to God again for the right one for me. But I think he never heard me so I just prayed to him one last time about this. I told him that I will just wait for the right time that the right person will come. Besides, He knows everything and He always wanted good for His children. So, I ended up waiting for the perfect time. From then on, somewhat I felt contented but I couldn’t hide through myself that there is still something missing in my life. There’s something else I need to be complete. Until one time, after days of waiting, I saw a star from above. This star was really shining bright. Then I remember my wish. I wished, “Can you please give me someone that I can love and who can love me for who I am? Can you give me the right person now? I already learned so many lessons through my past loves. I know now that I can handle a good serious relationship. I’m really begging. I’m tired of waiting. I know you’ll hear me even just for now. And I promise, I’ll take care of it. I’m counting on you.” Then the day after, a man introduced himself to me through text. He got it through my friend. Everything seemed so good when I’ve known him. There’s something on him that really makes me glad everyday. We have the same attitudes and some interests. We really jive in. Then I found out that he was looking for someone who he will love and who will love him unconditionally. He told me he always pray to God to give him the right one. Then I remember my prayer, the same prayer he was praying. I cried for joy. God is really great. He did give His best for us to know each other. Because we have the same prayer, maybe God think that we are meant for each other. Two persons hurt from their past and both wants to experience the beauty and magic of love. He was a God’s blessing for me. And so when we got steady, we made a vow that we won’t hurt each other. And that, we will always be honest and faithful with each other. And no matter what happens, believing and trusting each other will be our weapon to conquer all the trials and problems that we will be committing. Now I may say that I’m complete. I found the missing piece of my self. I found the other half that would make me whole. I was overwhelmed and over-satisfied. I just wish that our love will last forever until our last breath ends. And I know that will happen because God is within us. We trust God and we know He will help us no matter what to save our good-lasting relationship. Thank God I found him. He changed my life. He changed my points of view. Because of him, I had a dream. I wanted to grow old with him and raise a family with him. I guess there’s nothing more I wanted when I found him. We were thankful that we cross our paths. And we are looking forward on the good things that will happen for us. Love is a great feeling. It is the most precious thing on earth but we should know first its true meaning and significant. Because some think love is a fantasy. Love is blind. Some give up whenever heartaches strike on their way. Love is not just joy but also sadness. Before you fall in love, you must know how to love yourself. You must be ready to be happy and also to get hurt. You must be ready when is the right time to fight for your love and to just let go of him. You must learn to accept the fact that some people don’t love you like the way you love them. Loving means giving your feelings to that person. You should know the right time and the right person. Because you will just find your true love when you believe on it and when you already encounter all the tests that it will give. And when it comes, be happy and treasure it. For it will only come once in a lifetime. So, enjoy being in love always.