Why Am I Always Wrong?

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I mean just that too. It seems I've done something wrong.... AGAIN. A few days ago, dad was talking to me on his cell phone and told me he felt that after mom got the news about her kidneys that she was giving up and then his house phone rang which was mom at the hospital. She wanted her wheelchair so she could rinse out her mouth and dad misunderstood and told me that she wanted her wheelchair to put her pj's on and get back in bed. They were arguing however I could only hear his side and he told me that I needed to get to the hospital NOW which hubby and I did. We flew up the road with our flashers on and going 80 miles an hour to get there. Come to find out mom wasn't be delusional at all but was upset because she wanted to take her teeth out and rinse her mouth out and nobody is there to help her because the nurse take their time in doing anything for anybody anymore. Of course it scared the living sh!t out of hubby and I but were soooo happy to see she was ok. However, in the meantime, I had called my aunt on the way up and told her what dad had said and I told her if she wanted to see her sister alive to get her butt down here and NOW! I lost signal with her and tried to call my brothers but couldn't get a signal and when I got there, mom was one pissed off lady, not at us but at dad. Why? Because my stupid @ss aunt just had to call her to find out for herself and she tells her what I told her which upset mom to no end and she called dad up and chewed him up one side down the other!! DAMN my aunt for calling her in the first place!! She knew how mom was treating dad like a damned door mat (because it's her safe zone) and he didn't need to be trampled on any more than he already was!! Besides that, my aunt could've called dad instead and got the details without mom knowing and mom wouldn't have been so upset!! Gee mee christmas!! Mom is recovering from a damned stroke for Heaven's sake!! Upset = high blood pressure = a stroke... duh?!?!?! I wonder sometimes where people get their brains from? A gumball machine?!?!?! Anyway, my aunt calls my mom while hubby and I were in her room and the next thing I hear is mom saying Suzanne, don't start and she rolls her eyes to the ceiling. I'm thinking.... oh great!! have another stroke and help her out Suzanne!! But I didn't say anything and told her let me talk to her and she handed the phone to me and she starts her crying and boo hooing all the while I couldn't say anything so I wouldn't get mom any more upset than she already was. Geeze!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally I get off the phone with her and eventually go home. I called my aunt two days in a row once each day and she didn't return my calls till today. I've told her that I've not seen mom since Friday night because I've had to take some time out for myself and clean my house which took me two days to do and I took today to recooperate some because I'm dead tired still. I told her that I had made up a list of all the things that needed doing while mom was at home or at the hospital for the neighbors to help out if and when they can or wanted to. Well my aunt proceeds to tell me that mom told her "I liked to have died when she told me" I told her she never said such a thing or even let on such a thing when I told her so it's news to me besides, I have a life too, I've put my life on hold for two months while everyone else was doing their thing such as going to their appointments and getting this and that fixed while I waited on them hand and foot. Enough is enough, I have to take care of myself too which is find a way to get new hearing aids and get my teeth fixed because I have 4 broken teeth and a crown with my tooth inside that had broken off so now my partials don't fit me right anymore and it's all because of having lupus, it's attacking my bones. I have to see a dentist some how some way to get my teeth fixed. They've had their time to go to their appointments NOW it's MY turn!! Besides that, I can't be at their house every day to do all that needs doing. Sure dad can do some or all but either he's telling the truth and can't because he can't catch his breath (then how can he work outside in his workshop so much then if he can't catch his breath) so he does what he can. I can not afford the gas to go every single day nor can I go every other day because it's too expensive!! Besides the fact that my car now gives only 20 miles to the gallon thanks to the change in chemicals in the gas which is giving all of us less gas mileage. My aunt had the nerve to tell me she felt for mom and dad because they're private people!! Well guess what??!! I didn't ask them to move down here!! And I told them if they did move down here they need to be close to me so I can get to them when they need me BUT nooooooooo they had to buy that house because it was beautiful, they wouldn't even come close to looking around our area and I told them that where they are is really hard for me to come every day and I'm not going to be able to. Then my aunt tried to use the guilt tactic by saying, "think of it this way, your parents spent time with you and did all they could for you while you were growing up" I told her point blank "I did not ask to be born, and what the hell do you expect of me? Break my back even more so than I already have? AIN'T HAPPENING!!" WTF people???????? I was about to blow up on her and it wasn't going to be pretty but she backed off and knew she was treading on dangerous grounds!! She's the type that would run her mouth and blow things waaaaaay out of porportion that she made my growing up years HELL when she was around!! There was ALWAYS a fight of some sort when she was at any birthday party or picnic or any type of family get together ALWAYS. Her own brother won't speak to her!! And I'll tell you something else about her, when my grandfather was on his death bed at home, she and mom were taking care of him. She always fought with her mother because she didn't know when to keep her trap door shut!! But this time she started a fight with my grandmother so she could back out of helping their dad so mom had to do it all alone. Now that she's back at her home, 4 hours away, she won't come back down because 1. because she's afraid she'll speak her mind and cause a ruckus 2. a new one, her doctor told her she couldn't make the trip till her knee was operated on unless it's an emergency. OH HOW CONVIENENT!! But tell ME what I should do?!?!?! Damn it all!! I THINK NOT!!!!!!!!! So I've embarassed my mom, according to my aunt with the list and gave it to their neighbors so they could help out because I need the help, I'm only one person!! Damn it!!