Now what? Need advice fast please.

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A couple years ago I fell deeply in love with a man and his little girl. For reasons I never understood he met another woman and married her in two weeks. We had almost no contact for six months, then he needed a safe place for his little girl and asked me to take her. His "wife" at this point had never moved in with him she lived 300+ miles away and visited on weekends, needless to say things were bad. We became freindly again and ended up getting reinvolved. His daughter went home when school started. Ten months after they married the wife finally moved in, and we returned to strictly friends status and I continued to have weekend 'visits' with his daughter who was calling me mom by this time. Once his wife moved in we never did anything inappropriate we simply talked on the phone as friends. His wife could not stand his daughter so I began keeping her more and more (I've had her since early May.) Three weeks ago, he took her back to her parents 300 miles away. It wasn't a one time arguement they had been fighting really bad for weeks and he had been talking to me more and more. A few hours after they hit the road to take her home I hit the road to his house (175 miles away) by the time he got home I was there. we spent two fantastic weekends together (one alone one with the kids) we spent every spare minute on the phone for two weeks then last weekend he informed me he had to give his marriage one more try (I still have his daughter with me). Again I back off to allow him to do what he feels is right, upset of course but I did as he asked and supported his decision. Yesterday, he got angry about something I said and right in the middle of blowing up at me he hung up on me. I was extremely upset because I was trying to let him know he was misunderstanding what I was saying but he wouldn't answer my calls. So I spent most of the afternoon crying and very upset. Two of my older daughters decided they were tired of him upsetting me and decided to take matters in thier own hands. This afternoon they called his wife and told her he was having an affair, and gave her proof because I had accidently left my favorite jacket there during my last visit, they also told her to ask the neighbors about the cars parked in the driveway while she was gone, (she knows my car). I know how this makes me sound I knew full well I was involved with a married man but I truly do love him with all my heart and I did not sleep with him during any time he was living with his wife. I never did anything nor tried to break up the marriage that was all mostly her doings. I know this woman well enough to know she will not say nothing to him till she has the proof of his infidelity to throw in his face. I knew nothing about it until after it was done, but now I'm in a horrid place, I've heard nothing from them at all which indicates to me she has yet to say anything, I still have his daughter, she's supposed to be going to school here this year. My dilemma I don't know what to say if the wife calls me and confronts me. Or what to say if he confronts me about it, I also don't want to lose his daughter in the past year and a half she has become one of my own (she's even in my mothers ring). A part of me says just get it over with but I have this 12 year old child that needs me, I'm the only mother she has ever really had (she's had an extremely bad time). I feel very bad about what has happened but I really did believe both times we got involved their was no marriage left but now I don't know what to do. Any advice? Please don't tell me how horrid I am I feel bad enough about what has happened. And please don't slam him this is really only the most basic of what's been going on. I'm trying to figure out how to handle this in a way that I can keep the little girl with me, and so the fall out from what my girls did is minimal on my family.