Would you still drink even if you know you turn into a monster when youre drunk?

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I do drink once in a while, or when there are occassions. The very first time I drank alcohol was when I was in high school. And that first time, made me really drunk. The feeling was, I was so brave to tell my friends all the things I wanted to tell them. I even played pranks and jokes with them. That was absolutely not my usual self! Or could it be that my natural self comes out when I'm drunk? But while I was in that situation, I really know what I am doing. And even after that situation, I still remembered all the things I had done. After that, I never got drunk again. My mom's husband is a bartender. I somehow understand that he drinks at work. But he is totally different when he is drunk. He lies on the floor, he mocks people, he pees on his pants, totally a mess! He tells a lot of hurtful things to me and my mom. Could it be that all those things that he tells when he's drunk are his very true feelings? Is he being true to himself when he's drunk? Then when he's finally gained consciousness, he would say sorry. He would say he remembers nothing. He doesnt remember what he did and what he said. Is that possible? The first time he hit my mom physically, mom and I moved to my aunt's house for a couple of days. Then he said sorry to my mom, and promised that he would never do it again. Unfortunately, it happened again, so we did the same thing, and he got drunk again, and again, and again, that we got used to it. He drinks too much alcohol when he has a problem. But if having problem is a valid reason to drink, then all people including me must be alcoholic too? I dont understand why there are people who still drink alcohol even if they know they become a very different person, or they turn into a monster when they're too drunk. Why not just drink and stop before getting drunk?