Am i in one way or another cheating on my boyfriend?

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My boyfriend and i had been in a relationship for 7-8 months now, and i love him. But one problem is, i don't know if i have a future with him... his family isn't that stable and my parents are not approved of my guy yet. Due to that fact, at times i think that it wouldn't hurt me that much if we break up... but what i think is totally different to what i actually feel whenever we come closer to breaking up... coz i really love my bf. Anyways, what i really wanna share is that, we're on a long distance relationship with my guy (but he visits me sometimes, about once or twice in every 3 months), and he has this close friend who is studying here in my school and we often chat and hang out with his classmates. slowly, i think I'm beginning to like my bf's close friend.... i look for him whenever i don't see him around, and i feel like i want him to be attracted to me or to like me too. but what's weird is that, whenever me and my bf are not in good terms, i notice that my feelings for his close friend disappears, and every time we are back again with my bf, my feelings for his close friend also comes back. i really don't understand why i'm feeling this way... i don't wanna have feelings for my bf's close friend... with this, am i in one way or another, cheating on my bf? i honestly don't wanna cheat on my guy (he doesn't deserve being cheated on..) i don't know.... maybe what contributes to my feelings for his close friend is that, i feel that i may have a brighter future with him and my parents might like him better.... (sigh) i'm confused on myself.... pls give me your opinion on this...