my feelings got banged up really badly....
By kreinao
@kreinao (56)
Philippines
July 23, 2008 4:58am CST
I haven't been in myLot for quite some time now.
So here is the story of my unprecedented heart break
There was this guy. He said that he loves me and that he would wait till my feelings for him would grow into love. We always hanged out and we always had fun. Though we had some fights and quarrels, we resolved it and everything would be back to normal. Or that was what I thought it was.
Our relationship had grew deeper. And these past few days, I had been waiting for the moment, that one perfect moment, so that I could tell him how i felt. But then, just yesterday, we had a fight.
The reason for that is because I wanted to go to the mall, but he told me that he would come over to my house. But I was already on my way to the mall. He said that I wasn't feeling very well, so I should just stay at home and he would just visit me.
I didn't want him to come over at our house because I wanted to go out with him. I don't want to stay sulked up in my room the whole afternoon waiting for him to arrive.
So there I was at the mall, I bought some food so that I wouldn't starve myself waiting for him. Then I kept on sending him text messages asking him when he would come or if he was even coming. He said he would, but in a very angry tone.
An hour passed by and still there was no sign of him. I just kept on doodling on my cellphone to make time pass by quickly. Then it had been 2hrs and still he wasn't there. We exchanged messages because I really got irritated while waiting for him. And he would reply to me in angry tones and he would tell me that it was my fault because I went out. Then 3hrs had passed. So he arrived. We were both quiet. None spoke a word.
We just sat there. Not looking at each other. Both with angry hearts.
I was hurt. Because he didn't think of my first. Cause if he did, he should have arrived earlier. He said that he wasn't doing anything else, so there was not reason that he should arrive 3hrs late. My heart got broken then and there. To think that he was the man who promised to love me and that we would make things right this time around.
He blames me for the things that had happened. I just told him that it was his fault, cause if he cared enough for me, he shouldn't have made me wait there for 3 long hours. That is what I told him. But he wouldn't accept it. He would rather blame me, because I was the one who went out, so I deserved to wait there for as long as he would want.
...right now, my heart is really broken. I cannot put into words the feelings that I have inside me now.
6 responses
@vikram3101989 (684)
• India
24 Jul 08
don't feel bad in good and log lasting relationship quarrels do happen and fights do occur so don't worry take him on drive to a beach and confess your feelings to him let him know that you care for him and see the results
@n30wing (4767)
• Philippines
24 Jul 08
Hello! All problems will be solve in time. Forget about it and forget everything happened. Let both of you think first don't blame each other. Do you know that you get to know more when problems arises. In a relationship theirs always problems, arguements,emotions,hurts but it's part of knowing each other more. The more you get hurt the more you will love the person sometimes. Don't make it a big fuzz just talk it nicely take it easy girl. Just think it this way that one he cares for you. Even me I won't allow my gf to go out when she feels sick. Life is so simple think positive. All problems have solutions. Have a nice day to you!
@subha12 (18441)
• India
23 Jul 08
i think here you are justified. i guess this person can't ahve any true feeling. he is acting as boss. he wants to act the way he likes. he does not think about you. but he expects you to always obey his orders. why eh was 3 hrs late when he was doing nothing? its his ego.
@jammyt (2818)
• Philippines
23 Jul 08
Don't feel so bad. This is just a petty fight. My boyfriend (Well he is my husband now) fought around 6 years of our 8 and a half years of being together!
Mind you, these was over such petty things just like our story. We are both the youngest so we are both stubborn. That's why we ended up fighting all he time. It hurts, I know. You just feel mad and you want to cry and all that. But do not take it too seriously. Look around, a lot of people have such bigger problems than you do. 
Also, don't forget the fact that he did not want you to go out because you were not feeling well. That only means he is after your welfare. That is why he was angry. Look past the part where he made you wait for 3 hours, and focus on how he was concern about your health. My husband was like that (still is) to me. I hope you work things out!
Mind you, these was over such petty things just like our story. We are both the youngest so we are both stubborn. That's why we ended up fighting all he time. It hurts, I know. You just feel mad and you want to cry and all that. But do not take it too seriously. Look around, a lot of people have such bigger problems than you do. Also, don't forget the fact that he did not want you to go out because you were not feeling well. That only means he is after your welfare. That is why he was angry. Look past the part where he made you wait for 3 hours, and focus on how he was concern about your health. My husband was like that (still is) to me. I hope you work things out!
@Riwazkhadka (19)
• Nepal
23 Jul 08
Dont feel so bad. I know what it feels when your love turns back on you and starts ignoring you. But its all the solution that you accept as your fault. See dont get me wrong. You said that he tells you that its your mistake and you too tell him the same in return. So the problem just seems to hang in the middle without any conclusions coming out of it. What do you want? I think that you just want the problem to be over and both of you to be together and happy as you used to. RIGHT? So if he doesnt accept that its his fault then let him be in his decision. Just try to make him happy by taking it as your fault. I know that you are not wrong, but someone has to take the step. Otherwise everything will get even more worse. So just try to make him feel good. Its all up to you to make him comfortable and forget the problem. Its all your love that will do it. Believe me.
