"Good as i'm not in"

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i depressed today,because of the answer"Good as i'm not in."perhaps,you had find some information from these words. Love is blind,right?this afternoon i told a guy who often say want to be with me that i want to see him,he back the message that do what i like .it means "reject"or "hope"? i don't know.we live in diffenert city,i miss him ,so i go to the city he living by bus taking some food. about 1 hour later,i arrived,but no permittion to in(this is a uni,and guard said i must have someone come to meet me.)so i send message to him,NO answer,i phoned him,NO answer yet.later,this message came:"Good as i'm not in!"i'm hurt about that. which thing is good?he was not in or i having no permittion to come in?and Good as i'm not in,this is "as" not" but".i compainted to him why not tell me he would not in?he answered that he had told me that yestoday,but today i send message to him,the answer if he will be out ,he answered that it's a hot day he don't know that.and i asked to see him he said that do what i like. tears steamed down from my cheeks.what i can do?the fact , it doesn't matter what i want and it doesn't matter i do.he back to me:"your too crazy!" right? it's a mistake?it's my wrong? i feel myself like a fool.