Afraid of the dark?...I could hear my thoughts shouting..

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I have been having different reactions towards dark,even since a little kid, I couldn't sleep with the lights off,or I needed at least the tv running or some music from the neighbours so I can fall asleep... As I grew older,I sometimes had the same feelings of anxiety and fear,and felt the need of noise,just to break the silence...and even after falling asleep, I had nightmares and I hated when night came....and there were nights when I turned everything off since the evening,and couldn't wait till dawn,so I can get back in my little quiet world, where I could just watch the full moon from out my window, breathe the fresh air from outside,and relax...and fell asleep peacefully in my dreamworld,dreaming of how my life should be. Now...as I am 23, I got used to being awake all night, usually in front of the pc,or tv... listening to music,chatting..typing..or leaving the tv on with some music or movie... And yesterday night I wanted to go to sleep early cause I had to wake up in the morning, and suddenly the lighted ,noisy room became like a cave to me... I could hear every little detail,noise,movement...it was so weird,even the clock ticking was unbearable..and along with it, I started to hear my own thoughts,after so long...I used to think a lot,meditate a lot,write diaries with my thoughts..and then ended it all by finding some late night activities that kept me occupied..and then, after so long, I could hear my thoughts again,they were shouting,crying to get out..they were scarring me...I didn't wanna listen anymore,too much peace and quiet,nothing to put my mind to..it felt strange and I turned on my pc again,and opened mylot but didn't post this discussion then because it just felt stupid..but now I would like to hear your opinions too,over the way you deal with the nights,darkness,and peacefulness...does it relax you,or does it give you the shivers?