Life goes on
By Gabs
@gabs8513 (48686)
United Kingdom
July 27, 2008 2:32am CST
She is 5 years old
She is sitting on the Floor crying and hurting, the happy Child disappeared in that horrible moment
Life goes on
She is 9 years old
She gets pulled out of a loving and caring home
Life goes on
She is 15 years old
Again she suffers the hurt of her body being taken violently
Life goes
She is 20 years old
She gets married hoping by all hopes this is it someone will love her, look after her
She is wrong
But Life goes on
She is 23 years old
She has a Child, the happiest Day in her Life
Life goes on
She is 26 years old
She has a second Child another happy Day in her Life
Life goes on
Many years pass, being stood on, being hurt, being sad, living through Night mares
Then something she is told one Day
She then decides for the First time in her Life to take matters in her hand, she gets divorced, she goes through hell she meets a wonderful Man, for the first time she knows what it is like to be loved, cared for, respected
She is after long last Happy, loved, with 2 wonderful Children, loved, by a wonderful Man, loved by her little Pet
Life goes on
She has wonderful Friends that she loves and treasures
40 years it took, for the little 5 year old to be happy, to be loved, and to accept the Nightmares she still suffers from at times
Some Friends have turned away from her, it hurts,
But her Life goes on
No matter what you have to endure the Pain you have to go through, the unhappiness you go through, the Happiness you go through, Life will always go on, take it from someone that knows, someone that has helped a lot of People in their Life, forgot about her Problems, pain, unhappiness, because someone needed her, someone was in Pain, unhappy, needed help, that is what makes Life go on, no matter what be there for the People you love and the People who need you, even if you hurt after, as Life will still go on
I know that some of you will think, Gabs is going insane, lol, maybe I am, maybe I am not, this is something that has been going through my Head for the past week and I needed to get it out of my Head and the only way to do that is to share it with my wonderful Friends,
So has anything been stuck in your Head that you need to get out of your Head???
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25 responses
@ESKARENA1 (18261)
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27 Jul 08
Of my friend yes, i get things stuck in my head too, they go round and round and the only way I can get rid of them is to let them out. Most of the time I ask why? I have been going around asking why? Just this last week, someone who does not know me, who will never meet me, took it upon themselves to be exquistily cruel to me. I was hurt, and have not been on air for a few days as a result. All I am asking is why? and I will continue asking this now until I find an answer that will satisfy me
blessed be, you are right we go on, because surely what does not kill us makes us very strong
Your friend Sue x
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@GardenGerty (160949)
• United States
27 Jul 08
They pick on you because they are bullies. They want to try to hurt people, and they feel anonymous when they are online. Not right, but ever so true.
@brendalee (6082)
• United States
27 Jul 08
I don't think you are going insane but if you are, I will go with you. LOL. That was a very touching story/poem. Very well written. Lately, the only thing stuck in my head is remembering to come back here and check on all my friends.
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@dana234 (2114)
• Spain
27 Jul 08
My dear friend,This story brought tears to my eyes, especially because I know who's life story it is.
I hope that writing has brought you some relief, even though it must have been extremely hard to remember all this before putting it to paper.
And a definite "NO" you're not going insane, you're doing something very difficult which requires a lot of courage.
Keep up the good work. This is a recommendation from your personal psychoanalyst Dana, lol.
There have been several things that stuck in a very remote corner of my mind, so remote that I thought I had forgotten them.
But as I got older they came out of that corner to bother me in the form of nightmares. I faced up to it, went through the pain of remembering and got through it. It took time and effort, but life goes on...
A big warm hug to you
XXX Dana
@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
27 Jul 08
Dana, then never read my Book lol
Seriously though it is hard and always will be hard, to open to it but it had to brought out sometimes and this is the time, the Book is taking out of me, but when I write it and remember I think to myself but you have survived, I want all my Friends to survive to try and deal with it
and if I can help I will
I love you, you are one of my dearest friends here xxxx
@GardenGerty (160949)
• United States
27 Jul 08
Right now I am having dreams about jobs, job changes, former jobs, possible jobs. It really upsets my sleep. Yes, I have been stuck on other things. I have not had the horrible times that the 5 year old had, but I have had my own bad times. I have had the good ones as well, and when I can, I remember them and rejoice in them, because that is where sanity is for me. I do things that nourish my soul. Someone probably needed to hear what you had to say today, so I am glad you said it.
@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
27 Jul 08
Thank you both of you
EsKaren I wish People would leave you alone and not bully you I do not see the point in People doing that at all
You are one of my Wonderful Friends just like Gerty is
This world is evil, it is not just Children doing the Bullying now Adults do to
Love and Hugs to you both
@ESKARENA1 (18261)
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27 Jul 08
yes Gerty, someone certainly did need to hear that today, for the five years old screeming in us all
blessed be
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@Lakota12 (42600)
• United States
27 Jul 08
I know I am one of those you have helped thru a bad time that happened just berfoer we met on line and I thank you from my heart. and yes now life goes on cant turn back the clock on anything have to look ahead and endure as life goes on hugs and bleesings
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
27 Jul 08
You also helped me in many ways
You helped me because you needed me which told me I was still worthy I needed to help you with your Pain and Grief and I am so glad that we met when we did as we helped one another
You don't have to thank me, you know I will always be here for you like I know you are for me and that is Friendship
Love and Hugs
@abbey19 (3106)
• Gold Coast, Australia
27 Jul 08
Writing our thoughts down on paper as you have done, can be very therapeutic gabs, and it can help us to get our thoughts in order.
You felt the need to get this off your chest and out of your head; you are not going insane, far from it my friend. Thank you for relating it to us - it was very well written.
I haven't had anything stuck in my head lately, but if I do, I would write about it as you have done, and get it off my chest.
@winterose (39887)
• Canada
30 Jul 08
hon writing is a form of therapy, I do it as you know as a writing, it cleanses the soul and heals the pain.
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@Angelwhispers (8978)
• United States
29 Jul 08
When I first started to read this I thought maybe you were going to share with us a story in your life :))) LMAO Gabs, yes I often get something like this stuck in my head and the best place to rid yourself of it is here in mylot :)))
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@Angelwhispers (8978)
• United States
30 Jul 08
Gabs I would love to read it! By the way I added you to my skype
@Feona1962 (7526)
• United States
28 Jul 08
Beautifully written....sad to read....but you are right....Life does go on....whether we wish it to or not it does....I have alot of things going through my head and would like to dispose of it, but I guess the time is not right now...I don't know that there ever will be a right time....hugs....
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@Feona1962 (7526)
• United States
29 Jul 08
Thank you gabs....I already knew you would be there for me....and I will always remember it...hugs
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@bellaofchaos (11538)
• United States
27 Jul 08
YOu put your life in such a poetic form and I so can relate to it .. I have gone through some hard stuff and yet life goes on it takes forever to get to the point where you can be happy and feel good. Yep I have things stuck in my head that are just not ment for mylot at times though. I will one day be able to write down some of the thoughts out for you guys though.
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
27 Jul 08
Bella I am writing a book about mine, that has actually helped me to come to terms with a few things
There are a lot of People out there that have things "stored" away and can not open up can not let go but we all know Life has to go on, we have to live with it but we do not have to let destroy us, I never realised that until I was diagnosed with my Illness, I wanted to leave the world then specially when I got bullied out of Job because of it, but them my Children walked in, I thought to myself, you have battled and won everything you will this to in time
Bella it does take a long time to get to the point to be happy but in the end we get there
Big Hugs to you
@gemini_rose (16264)
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27 Jul 08
Yes life goes on, it is whether we choose to go along with it that is important. By the sounds of it you did and you are the person you are today and that person is very special to lots of us.
Sometimes we moan on here about lifes little trivial things, things that summed up are not really important and we often forget that so many people are truly suffering in their lives or have suffered and then, I put it all into perspective and stop going on about unimportant things.
I do not think you are going insane and I am glad that you shared this. Hugz xx
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
27 Jul 08
Gemini Sweetie, nothing is trivial if it is upsetting the Person themselves, it is there it hurts, it needs to be talked about, it needs to come out
I did not tell anyone about it for many years, I did not always tell People how bad my Marriage was, as others have their Problems, they need help with
That is what I did so all this and much more was always buried and still is in a sense
The worse was the Child had to deal with it alone, get herself to stay normal deal with it and carry on, but that Day the Child was killed, and for the 2 following years more and more was killed of the Child, until it stopped after 2 years, but she had to deal with it
My Book has it all
Love and Hugs to you xxx
@1grnthmb (2055)
• United States
28 Jul 08
In a way this is beautiful. Life truly goes no. No matter how we look at it it continues to march forward with or without us. Taking matters into our on hands is the only way to have happiness. If you let others control it then there will be no fulfillment, nothing to look back on with fond memories except maybe a few brief moments. It is better to take control and make your own decisions and guide your own life. My childhood was not pleasant. I do not have fond memories of it except a few moments. I was told I was stupid and worthless and would never amount to anything. I proved them wrong. I struggled and over came the problems I had. I learned not to be negative about everything that life handed me. I learned to take control of my own life and to just let the problems slip to the side. I worked hard. Went to college, which no one thought I would even do, and graduated with high honers. I became very successful at what I did and had a very good carrier and became a successful businessman. Then health took that away from me. But I kept the positive attitude that I had taught myself. Things were hard but I got through them. I lost friend but I made new friends and was blessed with a wife who did not care that I was disabled and three step daughters who loved me unconditionally. Life is what we make out of it. If you are given lemons then make a lemon pie and not drawn in the sourness of it. Enjoy what you have and be happy that you have them. Love the ones who truly love you. And last be content that you were given the warmth of friends who love you.
Love You,
Mark
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
29 Jul 08
Mark for many years my Ex Husband had me believing that to, I was stupid, I didn't know what I was talking about, I did not have a clue, I should just shut up
But look we have come through it stronger
Love you
Gabs
Love to your Wife, and the Girls to
@Katlady2 (9904)
• United States
29 Jul 08
My dear Gabs, you are NOT going insane (ok...you're friends with me, so maybe you are just a tiny bit LOL). Your words are so beautiful...you brought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing this hon. Right now, there is a song from Kids Camp at church that keeps rolling through my head. I think it's time to break out the CD and play it again and again. Think that will work?
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@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
29 Jul 08
Hey I don't mind being totally insane lol as long as I have you in my Life as a wonderful Friend,
It might work you know
I have nearly finished the Book to lol took me long enough I guess lol
Then I need to try and find out about trying to get it published but hey if I can't no worries at least I did it
Love you
Big Hugs
@pyewacket (43903)
• United States
28 Jul 08
This was truly beautiful to read gabs...Yes, sometimes writing things out, especially the painful episodes we've gone through in life can act as a healing balm..a catharsis that allows us to release it. Life does go on....no matter what we've been through. I get up each day feeling grateful for another day of life as life no matter what has happened in the past, happening now, or will happen is a gift to me. Another day of opportunity. I too have had a "freeing" of sorts from past pains, my life may not have been as traumatic as yours, but we all have our share of pain...and perhaps betrayal of the very ones we thought loved us..but it's in the past now....Thank God!
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@teapotmommommerced (10359)
• United States
28 Jul 08
Gabby I have had to learn that yes life goes on and you make your own destiny. I am glad I learned that a long time ago. I have two wonderful children and have a lot of great times with them.
I had a crappy childhood but I did not let it stop me from living a wonderful adult life.
I hope you are ok now. You have two wonderful children and a wonderful man. You go girl.
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@teapotmommommerced (10359)
• United States
29 Jul 08
Big hugs from Sammy, Abagail and Petie and of coarse myself.
I am so glad that the night meres are going away. It is nice not to have the past popping in your head every minute of the day.
@bensonshen (102)
• China
28 Jul 08
Thanks for such a meaningful sharing. Absolutely a good lesson for all of us. No matter what suffers in life, happiness or sadness, life still keeps going on without even a while's pause. So we should bear in mind that tomorrow is another day and keep striving then finally, when we get old, when we call back whose time we have passed through, we will never feel regreted.
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@NoddaProbBob (108)
• United States
28 Jul 08
Sorry to hear about your ups and downs in life. This really was a beautiful poem and I wish that more people could see this the way you do. I share some of what has been written in your poem. Sadly, I don't see life the way you do. I wish I could. It's very difficult. There's a lot stuck in my head right now. But too many painful things to share on an open discussion. It's been a long time since I've written any poems or anything like this. It makes me miss it. Im glad to have seen it though.
@gabs8513 (48686)
• United Kingdom
28 Jul 08
I know it is difficult, very difficult but you need to fight it
There is a ot more that has happened in my Life believe me, many a time I did not think I would get through it but I have, I have because the People that love me keep me going and always have
I do not normally write Poems and I never thought of this as one but yes I uess it is
I am writing a Book about my Life, which has forced things to come out that I have buried for so many years, that is helping, if you have someone to talk to, then talk to them, don't make the mistake I have by leaving it so long, take action on things now, not years later
And mainly NEVER BLAME YOURSELF even as a 5 year old I was blaming me, it is strange how a 5 year old can of all a sudden be an Adult in a sense
I really hope that you will be able to deal with this I really do
It is hard but you can do it
