I am trying to learn about buhdism

I was going to say that it is a matter of finding yourself over creating yourself BUT the truth of the matter is, its a bit of both...you find your true core being then fine tune it which would be creating the end result if that makes sense... anyway..I dont know what your local library is like but you could look for a book called Awaken the Buddhist Within by Lama Surya Das which is an absolutely FABULOUS book....and check out this site..http://www.buddhanet.net/e-learning/index.htm buddhism has a been a huge part of my life for over 10 yrs now..and if it interests you I would highly recommend lookin into it..

That's good. I also believe that you can create yourself. There's a time in your life when you need to step away from other's trying to impose things on you. It's better to rebuild yourself, essentially. I wish I could help you, but the best way to do it is by the internet. If you don't have any internet sources, then how are you typing this? I'm just curious. Well, you could look around in a library for some resources.