mother's love ....

i can relate with you. i can totally understand how you feel. mine is even depressing because it is just recently. my mother passed away 4 months ago and i with my siblings are living together with no parents. dad passed away when i was 7 years old and only mom stood up all alone to care, made us grown up, send us all to school and earn our bachelor's degrees. my mom passed away two days after our youngest brother's college graduation. we celebrated his graduation while mom was critically ill (with a lot of contraptions) but with tears of joy and a hand written note "mission accomplished". not to brag but she happened to make 4 registered nurses all by her self aside from the fact that she did not remarry for the passed 19 years that she was a widower. our youngest just passed the licensure examination for nurses this july. that's why we feel so frustrated that she was not able to witness her youngest earn the same title and swear the pledge. oh, i miss her so much too because i am her eldest and we were close like sisters. and what is more upsetting is in two or three months time i may be leaving my hometown with a career in the US with so many plans i had for her if only she is alive.