A Big Battle

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a huge battle that someone cant do alone but needs you. your love,your friendship,your strengh..just to be there that one person that wont let you down..thats my mother..i battled cancer 13 years ago and thought it was so horrible and why me kicked in..so why me?? why anyone?? it doesnt pick or choose who gets it..its not wrote down in a book..you can be healthy and get cancer and not make it..so whos right or whos wrong?? who do you listen to?? where do you turn?? MY STORY: like i said i had cancer 13 years ago HODGKINS in the lymph nodes.it was first detected in my neck and thanks to knowing my body and how it is supposed to be i was able to get to it quick than some. I had surgery on my neck for the byopsy to be sure(ok that was fine)HERES the KICKER..i was working at the time and the surgen called me at work and told me the bad news YOU HAVE CANCER!! Wow how do you respond to that question or even try to think that this is happening to you..I got no sorry,no compastion or anything from this man..i went home and told my mother,my rock,my friend,my world..she was there when i needed her the most. The next day i got a hold of my family doc. and he told me to go see a specialist who then send me to a cancer doc..so between all the docs..there were tons of x-rays so many i cant even count anymore,i had several other surgerys in between and before my radiation treatments began..lymphangigram(cut into the tops of feet.to open up the veins and put in dye)as well as needles poked in between each of my toes to add more dye(that was so much pain and i wouldnt wish it on anyone),my spline was removed to be on the safe side that it didnt go there..lucky for me it only stayed in the neck and half of my chest..3 months of radiation and some hair loss along with the weight loss and getting sick and beening tired all the time(my mother was there for me).I lost a boyfriend over this mess because he couldnt deal with it..why?? i ask that alot..maybe it was to much responsiblity for him to be there and just listen and comfort..i still have to go once a year for check-ups and all the routine stuff but i thank god that im here. On the other hand why is one person spared from this horrible thing and loved ones die?? I lost my father last year to 2 types of cancer and my grandmother 6 months ago from it as well. was i supposed to be the strong one in there time of need or just someone who understood what they were going threw or was it getting me prepraid for something else?? who knows nobody knows and no will..just thank god that your hear and still alive to live your life and enjoy your family..if you know someone who has cancer mother,father,sister,brother,girlfriend,wife,husband and the list goes on..be strong and dont give up on them they need you more than you think..also listen,listen with your heart and leand that shoulder becuase it will see a lot..good luck to all,god with you all and remember DONT GIVE UP!!