Life is like a wheel... what do you think is your top and bottom part?

i can say i'm still in the bottom part. 3 months ago, i was diagnosed of having an aplastic anemia. because of that, i was forced to stop my studies. my doctor didn't allow me to go out and mingle with other people because of my condition. i'm over bored now so bored that there were times that i wanted to runaway and be free. i'm sick of chemotherapy coz i feel worst.

Hello!..surprise!I don't have an avatar. Anyway I had my down time for about almost a year way back in 2004.That's when my ex-husband gave me the result for the annullment and I had no job,no money,has to stay at my moms small apartment and I wasted my two months wasting my time on dates after the annullment hoping that I could divert my time and be happy if I go out on dates.My ex-husband got married again after 2months when the annullment was finally over (summaryI was a plain housewife and gave all my time to my family and my ex had a girlfriend who is now his wife,it was a non-appearance case for us.did not attend any court hearings bec. I don't want to hear all the false accusations by him just to have our marriage annulled.He has the money and I guess what I've learned from our love story was never to be a plain housewife again bec. the guy gets bored and never to be too submissive to the husband),my kids are not with me and that's the saddest part of all simply bec. I don't have a job and I don't have a place for them to live. I struggled very hard,asked friends to have me join in to their businesses or projects so that I could earn money too.It was really hard...I lost my self-esteem due to the actions done by my ex-husband.I don't have the guts to apply bec. I am just a college undergrad(3rd year)and another thing is that I don't have money to go to Makati or Ortigas to find work.If I have money to apply I have to look for a restaurant that offered cheap prices for food. I had a better home before with my ex,I had 2 nannies and house helpers at home.But I didn't know that this will happen to me. I learned from what happened to my life with my ex.I prayed a lot,prayed for strenght,prayed to regain my self-esteem,asked for guidance and prayed that I don't want to be lonely and alone forever. God works in mysterious ways.He taught me how's it like to be hurt,betrayed,and left with nothing. And now I have a better job and can pay my rent and buy things my children want to have and an understanding and loving boyfriend.I still feel the ups and downs of life but I guess nothing will surpass the hardships and trials I experienced way back in 2004.I blamed HIM before and I felt that I am at the bottom of my life.And I asked forgiveness for blaming Him for my failed marriage. If I have problems I don't take it seriously.I mean if there's nothing I can't do about it..I'll just leave it that way bec. I know somewhere...somehow...I will find answers to all my problems and the solutions for my downtime will be resolved if I will just be patient. Hmm...drama time....tumbling zeroflashx. pinksBEE

hi zero! yeah. i also believe that life is full of ups and downs. we would never know if its going to be up or down tomorrow. its just like a wheel continuously turning around. so far, the apex of my life had been during my college days when i was free and living far from home. enjoying everyday with my friends, partying at night, going out every now and then without getting a failing grade, not even a passing grade, always higher than the average. ^__~ i had so much fun in college that i didn't want to graduate! i enjoyed my graduation but i didn't want to leave school. i haven't had enough fun then. ^__^;; the lowest point in my life on the other hand was when i was feeling bored with my work and everything was going so bland. no excitement, no happenings, no nothing. and i was being cranky and grouchy because of it. life was empty. and my mother's being a pain in the azz. i was hating my brother and his wife, my sister-in-law. i was hating my big nephew and nieces. i was being aloof to my friends. life was so boring it was getting on my nerves. good thing it was over. i hate that part of my life. i wish it won't happen again. i'm just glad that things are the way it is now. ^__~

Right now I'm trying to balance myself so that I wouldn't fall so bad at the bottom part. I had experienced both being at the top and bottom that's why I'm trying to stay in the middle as much as I can.

I welcome both my tops and bottoms, that is what life is all about. We can never appreciate the tops if we don't have the bottoms. I take them all with a grain of salt, especially the bottoms, because this is where I am challenged the most. I look at them as challenges that make me a better and stronger person. I can say therefore that I'm riding the waves, so I manage to stay on top, even when I'm down. (Isn't that an contradictory- like an oxymoron?) Anyway, it is your perception that would help you look at things whether you are up or down. Always choose the glass as half full, never half empty. All the best, happy mylotting.

Maybe for me,it is just at the bottom right now since I'm looking for a new job.Surely the reason is I'm not satisfied with my present job and I'm not happy staying at the present company.But nowadays it is very very difficult to find a satisfactory job with so many excellent people around.So I have to keep trying and wait for the better opportunity. Then of course when I got a job which is proper to me and which is to my satisfaction,I will work hard and then enjoy life at the same time. If there is no overtime work and you have enough spare time to do anything you like,I think one s/b content,and this will be like on the top of the wheel. But even at the bottom in life,I think we should always be appreciative.As long as we are alive we s/b appreciative.And I'm sure those who have survived crisis will understand this thouroughly.Also we can always feel content and lucky when we compare ourselves with those who suffers more than us.Here I'd like to tell a story between my husband and I which have impressed me most: One day we bought a water-melon which is not cool since the day is hot.We all know that it s/b put into the icebox for a moment before eating. But truth is we don't even have one! (Haha,maybe you will find this incredible?)So I had an idea to put the watermelon into a basin of cold water to make it better. After this,I said to my husband:how poor we are for not having even an icebox so that we have to do it in this way! But then what you think my husband replied? "There may be a lot of people who won't be able to afford just a water-melon!" Surely there won't be "a lot of" such people,but I know such people must exsit.So I enjoyed the water-melon very much as if it is the best we had although it is not perfect w/o an icebox. So I think that's life, when we really realise how much we have got we will be appreciative and happy and above all, content.

in my case I must say the maximum amount there is downtime. it is going on for long. currently there are so many problems in life.for last 3-4 years its getting continued. it seems the bad spell will never go from life.i am facing problem in career,with dad's health and many personal problems. its so long taht i can't remember if anything good ever happened to me.

Right now I would say that I am on top. We used to be downright at the bottom but I as I always say, "this too shall pass" ---------- and it did! Life is really like that, sometimes you are down and sometimes you are up. Just don't forget to thank your God for all the blessings that come your way.