I believe my sister likes girls but she doesn't want to admit it.
By freshsoda
@freshsoda (72)
Philippines
August 14, 2008 7:47pm CST
My older sister has a lot of friends. A lot of female friends in fact. I haven't seen her have a close guy friend. Ever since we were kids, her whole group would be girls. I didn't mind at all coz i also do have a group of female friends. But as we grew up, I tend to meet a lot of people and make friends with men. She on the other hand...1 or 2 acquaintances. She had one suitor though who was really patient enough, and his patience were rewarded, he became her husband. At that time i was very happy for her. 1 month after the wedding though, it was splits ville. At that time, my sister has a 'best friend' it was so unusual that i tend to dismiss the fact that it seems very odd. She picks her up from her house and vice versa which was out of the way from our house. The best friend sleeps almost everyday in our house, in her room. Locked. Whenever a guy talks to my sister and vice versa, they gave each other looks of jealousy, soon turn to an argument ( i know this because my sister's room is just beside mine and i could hear them, my bad! eavesdropper!ugh). I used to peek with emails, (My bad again!) when my sister was abroad and would see Baby I love you' I miss you very much! sigh! to her 'best friend' I would just deny it to myself that she isn't like that. When my sister was proposed to by her then husband. That 'best friend' really reacted the sort of when couples have a third party to deal with. My sister, i think was really pushing to have a normal boy-girl relationship. But i think it was never her inkling, she used her husband as a front for her issues. A lot of my friends has been asking me if she's g*y, i couldn't really answer them because my sister haven't really told me. I asked some of my g*y friends if they think my sister is one of them, they would say yes. It was all speculations and for me a denial. When i asked her up front, she just denied it. I really feel bad for her ex-husband now, because i have to respect my sister even thought she is lying to my face and making me feel dumb and innocent. And the thing is, it really doesn't matter at all. It's the honesty that really counts because she my sister. How can i confront her with this?
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7 responses
@nicholejade (2430)
• Canada
15 Aug 08
First off who cares if she is a lesbian. Secondily I don't suggest you snooping through her emails and looking for things as well. That is not right even if you are sisters. If your sister is a lesbian it is her choice and when she wants to come out and tell you she will. It sounds like she is but it might not be. Yes she lied to your face that she wasn't but in her respect if she is a lesbian she doesn't know how the family will react so there is fear that you will reject her. Leave her be and she will come out and tell you when she is ready. Don't go and push her on this give her her space.
@nicholejade (2430)
• Canada
15 Aug 08
She will tell you when she is ready. Remember not to push her. And most likely the reason why she is not talling you is because you snooped through her things and sisters don't really like that.
@freshsoda (72)
• Philippines
15 Aug 08
thanks nicholejade, maybe its not her time to tell. I have to assure her next time we talk that her family will always be here for her. It just came to me, that she doesn't want me to know about it, because i am her little sister, and big sisters are suppose to be the one to guide the little ones, just a thought that pop out in my mind. Maybe that's one of the reasons she doesn't want to admit it. oh well. My bad for snooping, i know that:)
@vanities (11395)
• Davao, Philippines
15 Aug 08
well i guess you have to wait for the right or proper time she will admit her preferences..maybe shes trying hard to become straight and willing to change..or maybe the other way around..just be patient to her ..
@freshsoda (72)
• Philippines
15 Aug 08
I guess so, thanks vanities. Putting pressure might have caused her to shy away her thoughts of bringing it out in the open.
@rsa101 (38166)
• Philippines
18 Aug 08
I really think that you should just give your sister her space and let her realize it on her own. I think your sister is still confused about her sexuality and is still searching her true self and for that you should give her space and do not psuh her to where you think she belongs to. I think that is just that some people cannot accept what they are and you just have to give her the time to figure things out for her.
@BriNbai (912)
• United States
15 Aug 08
Maybe your sister is g*y maybe not.Rather than spying on her and making her feel like she has to hide from her own sister, sit down with her and remind her that family will always be there for her.No matter what.So just tell her that if shes ever ready to talk then you will b ready to listen and accept her decisions.To tell you the truth i wouldn't want to tell an annoying little sister who spies on me and talks about me to her friends behind my back such an important decision either.So just talk to her and tell her you love her and tell her she can count on you.Best of luck :]
@freshsoda (72)
• Philippines
15 Aug 08
thanks BrinBai, actually i did talked to her about it, because that was the issue she and her husband split up. She totally denied it to my face. This was before i even checked her email ..sigh! And my friends were asking because they noticed it and confronted me about it. Oh well, thanks for the advice, i might have a heart to heart talk again to her soon.
@uncrushable (43)
• United States
2 Sep 08
Have you let her know that her being gay is fine with you? Maybe not let her know in such direct terms but rather rent a movie with an openly gay character in it or something with her.
Other than that I say you should definitely give her some space for her to deal with this. When she comes to terms with it herself then she'll come to you.
@ragingangel (19)
• Philippines
11 Nov 08
Just let her its her who would know when she'll be ready for everyone to know that she is gay... its a hard decision to make. I use to be inside a closet and so I know ;) Just make her feel accepted and loved, and drop a few hints every now and then that you know and that its ok :)