when was the last time you cry???

@jairgirl (2877)
United States
August 14, 2008 7:55pm CST
this is the question i got on my email tonight, it was one of those forwarded emails that some of my friends like to pass along LOL anyway, i stopped awhile and think about it. i asked myself the question repeatedly and it still gave me the same answer ... 2 hours ago!!! interesting? surprising? it is mostly depressing... this afternoon while my hubby is having a huge meeting in his office the doc's assistant called him regarding my blood test result last month. it is all about my thyroid coz i have noticed that my body is being strange the past few months. anyway, the doctor says the result will be mailed a week after the test but it is already 2 weeks and a half and we still didnt hear anything from them and when they called me yesterday they didnt left a message much that will explain what is going on other that they want to discuss the result with me. i return the call and left them a message but didnt hear anything so my man bugs them a lot today. unfortunately he is in the middle of a huge meeting and only accepts the call coz the nurse said she cannot guarantee that she is available after 5 minutes - what the??? the only thing my hubby understand is that i have hyperthyroidism and i need to have some more checks coz it is pretty high. i cried when he told me the news coz i hate going to the hospital and i hate those needles. i also hate taking medication. yes i am such a big baby when it comes to that kind of stuff but like most says it is for our best BUT still. i also am very worried coz they are supposed to send me my test result and they didnt and that makes me worry that there is something more wrong in my body. i am still very depress right now because of it and that is the reason why i am here again. my hubby is reading a lot of stuff right now regarding my situation coz often than not doctors dont know everything and we always have to provide them bunch of questions based on what we read and that is the only time that they will look further and deeper bout the situation. anyway, i know i shouldnt let the worry overcomes me but i cant help it. how about you? when is the last time you cried? takecare
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fearie
@fearie (153)
• Philippines
15 Aug 08
The last time I cried was in the MRT (train). It was so loaded and there were still a lot of people coming in. It wasnt comfortable at all. Evrything was going wrong that day from the time that I woke up. Then I knew I was gonna be late. It just all add up and made me cry. Hahah
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jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
16 Aug 08
hi fearie, it is amazing how we often can tell what our days could be like, some people says it is not coincidence coz our brain is very powerful and if we think about bad stuff it sure will happen. anyway, i remember watching something in the news few months ago about the train in japan and how they pushed the passenger even if its impossible just to give some more room to others. it is horrible. i live in china and it is like that too. believe me the subways and bus are like 100x more than what it supposed to have. i find it funny coz they have bunch of bus and trains but they all jump to just what they see. i hurt myself one night on my way home coz the dang bus moves and i am only one leg on its door - cheer up you only experience it ones i think i have it more than 50. anyway, i cry out of frustration most of the time. i guess the helplessness is just too much. oh well. thanks for sharing your experience. takecare
Bluepatch
@Bluepatch (2476)
• Trinidad And Tobago
15 Aug 08
I can make myself cry. I'm a 57 year old big man and I can make myself cry. I did it once. I kept thinking of something really sad and persisted until I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks. I didn't think I could do it but I did. Sometime last year.
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jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
16 Aug 08
hello bluepatch, 57 aint no old - geezzz! i am looking forward to be 40 and 50. i used to force myself to cry in front of the mirror when i was a kid it makes me smile afterwards coz i prove to myself i can cry for no reason too which is silly coz i have to think so many sad thoughts and try to yawn at the same time (it helps you know LOL) anyway, i am happy it was a year ago when you last cried. i hope you are happy and contended in life. you sound like a jolly person, that is a gift i often tell my hubby to be grateful for haha. takecare!
ctrymuziklvr
@ctrymuziklvr (11057)
• United States
15 Aug 08
The last time I really cried was last January and for two months after when my Mom passed away. There are still some times when I think about her that I will shed some tears.
jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
16 Aug 08
hello ctrymuziklvr, sorry to hear bout your mom, it is not an easy thing. i cried for 3 years when my first bf passed away due to car accident. the pain takes a long time to heal, just give it sometime and think of all the wonderful stuff you shared with her. makes me miss my mom (she is living away from me) i wish you the best. takecare
Carolyn63
@Carolyn63 (1403)
• United States
18 Aug 08
Hi Sweetie, I'm sorry you are worried and afraid. You said you haven't felt well. Look at it as a chance to feel good again. No need in panicking about what if's. Wait for all the facts, then you can do your own research and ask better questions such as alternative therapies and such. Sometimes no news is just that, no news. Sometimes we put ourselves through a lot of worry and fear for no reason. I understand that unanswered questions can bring about anxiety. When the doctors tell me something new, like my heart is enlarged on one side, I can panic or I can ask questions. I don't have to accept their answers, I can get a second opinion. With more info my options are improved. So I have to think about myself and eat better, and take new meds, I feel better, my chance of heart attack and stroke are lowered, I feel better. Like I said, look at it as an opportunity to feel better and live longer. Our attitude can change many things, including our health and recovery. When did I last cry? It was a few weeks ago. The loss of a friend. A really sad story in itself. Maybe some day I will share it. Know you are in my thoughts sweetie. Blessings, Carolyn
jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
21 Aug 08
hi carolyn, thank you so much for the support and for the words of encouragement, it means a lot to me! They finally called me yesterday and told me that they will finally mail my test result, my husband and i agrees that i will change a doctor after i had my second test in a specialist, i just dont like that fact that a huge hospital like that dont seem to care bout their patience. my husband did all the research coz he knows i can be overwhelmed by it that will lead to my depression. i have been really depress this past few days but i kinda realize that i wont be able to help my sister-in-law with her projects and i feel bad coz im being selfish for that matter. anyway, i will have another test next month on the 12th and will have some more after that, fun fun fun! my husband is sick at the moment, we went see a doctor today and it was like night and day compared to my doctor - strange! thanks for showing me the different side of the story, it is great to hear from you again. i am sorry bout your friend, it is not easy to lose some one dear to us. i will be here when you're ready to share it. have a good night! hugs...
jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
28 Aug 08
hello again, thanks for a very wonderful post. it sure touched my heart in a way that you wont be able to imagine. it is wonderful to hear those words and it sure help me look at myself again and see why i still carry such pain at times. specially if something reminds me of it. i am sorry that you have went to so much as well, no wonder you are such a wonderful kind hearted person. i honestly feel that those pain made a person wise and kind. they know exactly what the pain is like and they would not want to do the same thing to anybody wether they care about them or not, they just dont want to cause such pain in anybody. PERIOD! i love the last part of your post. it echoes in my heart, it is the same feeling that my late grandma often gives me when i was a kid and feeling helpless and lost (not that i am saying you are old LOL,, just love the feeling you gave me) have a good one!
Carolyn63
@Carolyn63 (1403)
• United States
22 Aug 08
Hi Sweetie, I'm glad you are getting a second opinion and am also glad your husband is able to do the research and save you a lot of confusion. My friend was a very gentle man. He loved being out in nature and would create furniture from the lumber he got during trips to the forest. He loved animals, was a mentor and teacher to me as well. However, he was in a bad relationship. His wife slept around on him often. He had self esteem issues and believed he didn't deserve any better. One day he had enough and upon returning home found his wife with yet another man and told them both to leave. They left and had a car accident that not only took their lives, but that of an innocent child in the other car. He felt responsible. He tried to take his own life. He felt that if he had just kept putting up with it the child would not have lost his life. My friend was in a hospital for quite some time. He just couldn't pull out of his depression. He passed during the night. We don't know what would have happened if he hadn't turned his wife away? Sometimes it's just our time. He couldn't know that lifes would be lost. It breaks my heart. I feel for all involved. Thanks for asking sweetie. You keep me posted on what the doctors say. Blessings, Carolyn
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hindichinese
@hindichinese (748)
• Philippines
15 Aug 08
This morning. When I wake up, I happily cried when i was thanking god for giving me a wonderful gift today. It is being a debt free person. I feel like I was a new person after i cried and happily do the cores at home...
jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
16 Aug 08
hello hindichinese, congratulations for such great work. i feel the same way when all my debts are gone. i hope you save more now that all the money you earn goes to yours only. it is a nice feeling knowing you are debt free. tears of joy is great, i wish i can have one soon. good luck my friend! takecare
Richard
@rbailey83 (1428)
• Canada
15 Aug 08
the last time i cried was on monday. I realized where my depression was going again and i didn't want my new girlfriend to experience a relationship with someone who has depression as severe as mine, however we both fell really hard for eachother and the thought of having to speak those words to her made me break down twice that day. My thoughts were of protecting her from that experience, needless to say i couldn't do it and rationalized that a talk about it would be better as after all it should be her choice not mine if she wants to continue, who am i to make that decision for her.
jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
15 Aug 08
hello rbailey, sorry to hear about your situation, depression is never easy and i applaud you for taking consideration bout your girlfriend's feelings before yours. when i met my hubby i didnt know he is suffering from a bad depression and he have to take medication to help him out. when i found out about it, it didnt make me want to leave him behind but have much desire to stay with him for the rest of my life coz i know he needs me and i need him. he's been out on medication for 6 months now, it was never easy for both of us but we realized that the side effects is not gonna help him anyway. i support him and make him feel that i understand his medical issues and that he have no control of it at times. what's important is - he is aware when depression is attacking and that is the most time i try to be as understanding as possible. sometimes it is very hard but i just think of the love we have for each other and that helps me overcome the pain and irritation during those times. the good thing in your situation is you are aware of it, a lot of depressed people dont even know about it. fact that you let your girl know about it will help her decide if she is willing to stand strong for you and your love. like you said leaving is not your decision but hers - you already did your part by telling the truth and let her do her part then. i wish you guys all the best. takecare
Richard
@rbailey83 (1428)
• Canada
15 Aug 08
thank you for sharing your story, i have been cast out by many because of my depression, and it is refreshing to hear about a situation in which that is not happening. I can't say i know what it is like for the partner of someone who is depressed but i can only imagine the frustration and stress it can sometimes put you through. I applaud you for being understanding and sticking by his side, it takes a special kind of person to do that. My girlfriend informed me that it is not going to scare her away and that she wants to be there for me and help me. It was nice to hear that from her, but i still fear that she doesn't fully understand the levels to which my depression sink, unfortunately i am on the last medication they have available to try, so far nothing but we'll see. I have been through ECT (shock therapy) but i was unresponsive, the psychiatrist is now wanting me to consider something called Deep Brain Stimulation as he has no where else to go to treat the depression. Unfortunately it is still in the test stages so it may take a while to find a place within my area where the surgery/treatment is being done.
Richard
@rbailey83 (1428)
• Canada
21 Aug 08
hey there. Well good to hear he is going to go see the doctor, lol sometimes we can get pretty stubborn about such things. I almost never go to the doctor, not until i am feeling so sick that i don't feel i have a choice and it's not getting better, lol bad habit but oh well. I know where you are coming from and understand completely. And it is definately a process which involves a lot of communication, especially at the beginning of a relationship in order to help your partner understand better. i went about 10 years before any type of medication was introduced, and since that time, have been through more than i can remember, have been unresponsive to everything they have tried. Right now i am on the last med that they have available to try for me so we'll see, there still exists another option, but im not so sure i want to go that course, atleast not yet. lol and yeah those what if questions can really get to you after a while, we'll see where things go and play it day to day for now. LOL your right though that you do have to try, and not stop trying, if you never try, you never know, and miss out on a lot
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danishcanadian
@danishcanadian (28955)
• Canada
15 Aug 08
The last time I cried was about two hous ago when eveyone I knew was pressuring me and I'd just had enough. My husbad was there o support me and calm me dow. It's ice to know there is someone out there who understands, and who will defend me when I need him. I am independent and just want people to leave me alone. What my husband does, and he does this vey well, is SPPORTS me and defeds my points while still allowing me to be independent.
jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
15 Aug 08
hello danishcanadian, we must be crying at the same time i know exactly what it feels likes to be pressured and be frustrated coz of it. it is great that you have a wonderful hubby who knows you well, supports you and knows how to calm you down. some hubby dont know how to do that to their wives and that is sad. thanks for being here. takecare
shana123
@shana123 (2095)
• India
15 Aug 08
Hey even my mom does have thyroid she has hypothyroidism i suppose because of that even i have some little amount in my blood.Dont worry i guess they will jsut ask you to have some medicines in empty stomach as soon as you get up from bed thats all is needed and monthly or once in 6 months your blood will be tested to know about the status of thyroidism in your blood.I cried when i entered my new college because i felt that im going to some new place where i dont know anyone as i dont get easily mingle with anybody it was like a alien's place for me.But then GOD helped me by fetching some friends voluntarily.
jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
16 Aug 08
hello shana123, thanks for your encouraging post. i was worried that i have both (hypo and hyper) based on what i am feeling, that is the reason why i want to know my result and scheduled a new test - oh some more pain. i hope that if they instruct me to take medication in an empty stomach it wont caused me another problem. my tummy is very sensitive (reason why i dont drink (just a sip every 3 months) any soda for 15 years now) so hope it will be fine. you sound like me, i am not friendly too. i only got friends at school coz they initiate it. i hope by now you have more friends than what you expect. college is a wonderful phase of life, i sure miss going to school. i wish you all the best. takecare
vanities
@vanities (11395)
• Davao, Philippines
15 Aug 08
cheer up..its treatable!!maybe you lack iron...that it becomes an illness..any way just think positively on this and youll be fine...i had my last cry when my daughter left us again last week for manila(of course its work)not really cry with corresponding sounds on it but just tears that flows..which really i cant help it..thinking that my daughter will be away from us again..thats how emotional i could be..little things makes me cry also..
jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
15 Aug 08
hello vanities, thanks for the support. yeah i know it is treatable, i just hate the fact that i have to go to hospital and undergo different kind of test and take medications. for some reason my body dont want to entertain such feeling i have always problem with iron i was anemic for a very long time and take medications as well. i am hoping the doctor will contact us anytime soon but it is always a problem here that you have to bug them all the time before they do something about it - frustrating indeed! you must be a loving mom. my mom often cry when we go away and that is why we always want her around. i dont know how far manila from you but maybe you can go visit her sometimes when you miss her, im sure she'll be happy to see you and the thought of such surprise. anyway, im sure the time she spend with you guys makes her very happy even though she have to leave again - she come back anyway to visit you again. thanks again. takecare
checapricorn
@checapricorn (16061)
• United States
15 Aug 08
Hi jair, [i]ohhh...Sorry to hear about that but don't worry too much! Just relax and be open! It's is also great that your hubby is researching about it so that you will be having a lot of idea and can inquire a lot about it! I hope to hear from you tomorrow that everything is fine, I know it is! Just be positive and entrust to God! I cried a lot, lol! Especially during my PMS..I am very silly and sensitive! Last time I cried I guess was last Monday watching the olympics! Made me so happy for the swimming team! USA! LOL![/i]
jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
16 Aug 08
hi che, thanks for the comment and support. unfortunately the doctor's office didnt call us again, we called them twice left a message and then talk to the receptionist and as always they said they will give us a call as soon as possible been 10 hours already and still no call - i really hate it coz i have to suffer and worry bout it. yeah i am happy that my hubby supports and studied it, he told me not to read about it and just let him do the studying coz he knows i will just worry more. hahaha, i rarely cry now coz of my PMS i guess coz i have a clown LOL i cant help but smile when i read your post that you cried when US won the swimming race. i like phelps too but dont feel like watching the show i rarely open our tv as well except for news in the morning and simpsons at night haha. anyway, i hope the swimming team wins some more and beat the record. takecare
bdugas
@bdugas (3578)
• United States
15 Aug 08
The answer to your question, about 20 minutes ago, seems just all of a sudden as I was setting here watching the Andy Griffith show, I like those old shows don't you. any way I suddenly found my self all alone. Now this is not news because I am married and my husband left on the 29th of July to go back home for awhile to visit his family, thisi s something that he does every year. I think it is good to have some time away from each other. But I got some bad news in the mail about a mamogram that I took the first of the month, and suddenly I didn't have anyone here for support. It is a very lonely feeling. My son called earlier, but I didn't say anything to him, no need for him to worry, he just had surgery last Tuesday, but I suddenly realized tht my life could be cut short real fast. With no one here you have so much time to sit and think about life and what it has brought you. I prayed to God, I guess harder than I ever prayed, to let these tests be nothing. It just seemed that all of a sudden this was a empty lonely house with only me and my dog in it, and I started to cry, maybe it was good to cry, lifts the pain off of you. Every one needs someone to lean on at times and finding your self alone, can be very depressing. Good luck with your tests and I will mention it to the lord when I say my nightly prays and maybe all will be alright for both of us.
jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
15 Aug 08
hello bdugas, thanks for the prayers and for sharing your pain with me. yes, it is not easy to feel alone and in pain at the same time. that is the reason why i want my mom to live with us coz i know she is home alone and it is not easy to be in such position. i know exactly what you are feeling coz 2 years ago, we are still living in china and my hubby is back here for his business trip and my sister (she lives with is in china too) is visiting her fiance in finland. i got very sick then and i was so helpless. i dont speak the language and i dont know anybody there so i cannot ask for help. it was horrible, i remember calling my hubby in the middle of the night (US time) and i am crying like a wild boar LOL it is such a depressing situation, the only thing that makes me look forward is my family and my dog who is staying next to me all the time. i wish we are neighbors, i will go there and give you a visit so you dont feel sad and alone. i know the feeling already and i dont want anybody to feel that way - i know it is impossible but i just wish it can be. i wish you all the best. i have called the hospital today twice as a matter of fact and they keep saying they will give us a call back. i hate it coz i have to worry and suffer coz of depression! have a good night! btw, i love andy griffith show too, i wish i know how to whistle i will surely do the tunes all the time.
angusthethird
@angusthethird (515)
• United States
15 Aug 08
Let's see: The last time I had a honest to goodness cry was age 14, back in 1980. I went to the high school dance, and discovered girls were not exactly falling over their faces to dance with me. The tall, athletic guys were getting the dances.
jairgirl
@jairgirl (2877)
• United States
15 Aug 08
hello angusthethird, wow, that was long time ago i was born sep 1980 and i cant count how many times i cried since then. i think i only cry less when i met my husband coz he change my whole world. anyway, i know it is not easy when we have high hopes and realized in the end it is not what it is. im sure by now you are very happy or at least happy in life coz you have not cried since then - congratulations! keep up such life. takecare!