Such a lonely life....
By eiram25
@eiram25 (1076)
Philippines
August 18, 2008 10:10pm CST
I feel like a walking zombie right now. So many problems alternately occupying my mind,making me confused on which one to concentrate on first. Got no one to talk to, and even if I do, nobody listens. If you ever ask me if I thought of suicide, yes I have, but I still believe in life. (sighs!!) How long will I be able to get of this? tsk!
4 responses
@the_queen_of_fire (100)
• United States
19 Aug 08
Everyone is going to have their depressive moments. Sadly, it's apart of life. Having so many problems in your heAd and trying to concentrate on one is very hard. I go through that situation everyday. When you think your life is falling apart, stress tends to creep up on you and make you go nuts. Stress is the main cause why our brains cannot focus on a single subject. You can either write poetry of your emotions or paint, like I do. It helps. Just take it day by day.
@eiram25 (1076)
• Philippines
19 Aug 08
Thanks for the advice! It's just ironic that I am surrounded by so many people yet no one is available to listen to me. Well, I guess I just have to accept that. Anyway, I started writing poetry and journals the other night. So far, having done these lessened my worries. I also made it a habit to walk in the park or go to the beach alone at sunsets. Helps me think calmly and clearly.
Have a good day!!!
@the_queen_of_fire (100)
• United States
19 Aug 08
You're very welcome. I wish I could go to the park or the beach, but it's a hassle to get there for me. So I just stay in my room for days just trying to come up with ideas to paint. I hope everything works out for you. You'll be fine.
@daxus100 (78)
•
19 Aug 08
Well all i can say is HUG:) im not sure what the right thing to say is to cheer you up but hang in there i hope things will get better,im a beliver that peopleometimes go through bad spots for a reason or to realise something important,anyway keep lotting till you see that way out:)
ps taz cheered me up
@sumiirajj (1983)
• India
19 Aug 08
Hi friend ,talk out your problems.then only you'l feel relaxed.make good friends.everyone in life has to face some critical situations,but the life wont be the same till the end .you will defenitely see changes.this sorrow is only for sometime ,this state will change defenitely.out with your problems and we are here to guide you always.have a nice day keep mylotting.
@eiram25 (1076)
• Philippines
19 Aug 08
Thanks friend!..at least mylot's here,serving as my outlet or avenue where I can talk and share my feelings. I really hope the changes you've mentioned will come soon coz' I badly need some sunshine right now after all this storm I'm going through. Thanks a lot for stopping by!!
@izzybutt (30)
• United States
19 Aug 08
yes, I know. And the problem is, you say to yourself, everyone has problems, why should I be any different? Am I so special I shouldn't have problems? Or Why is God punishing me?
I hate that pity party! I recognize that I'm pitiful and can't do anything about it.
But I can. I can't solve all my problems, but I can do one thing. I can do the thing that's right in front of me right now. The more unrelated to my problem the better. Doing the dishes, a load of laundry, brush the dog. Anything except concentrate on the problem. Bake a loaf of bread and cry in the dough.
I do one thing, then I can do one more. And I journal.
It's always better to have someone to talk to, but I feel no one wants to talk to someone so pitiful. They only love me when I'm fun and funny!
The worst thing is feeling guilty cuz' I'm not feeling grateful for everything I do have. That sucks!
Hey send me a message we'll see if we can't get our pity parties in sync!
No seriously. I'm just coming out of a stinky funk myself. I'll listen.
@eiram25 (1076)
• Philippines
19 Aug 08
Hey friend!.. Looks like we're definitely on the same boat! I did start writing journals and poetry to help me get through the day. Nice to know that I'm not alone in this thing. You know what, this only made me remember the "Bridget Jones' Diary" movie, the part where she's all alone crying while listening to the song "All by myself"..What a life indeed! Guess we'll have to survive this jungle then!.. Thanks for stopping by!
