I work at home, really I am self employed and make very little what about You?

That is superb! I am so glad Your going to not need to pay childcare and make a income all in one cool clean smooth swipe! WTG, that makes things so much better all the way around. It sounds like a great opportunity and a fun job as well. I hope You like it. I imagine that it would be awful difficult not to like teaching children, although, We all know the older they get the mouthier and less respectful children can be. Funny no.... ironic that they then become adults about the time they could be professionals at lack of respect, disrespectful, and mouthy as some are. Obviously they don't all act that way. Outwardly anyways ;) No referrals huh? 200 a month?... well that is beyond sweet. Your well on Your way. I know even with 1 small one and needing day care full time there is almost nothing left after paying for a car/vehicle payment daycare, gasoline, maintaining a vehicle and all that. Almost better off to stay home and be without the few bucks left after all that. Of course when we were there. We worked different shifts and had our son in only a few hours daycare during overlap daily so more was actually income rather than daycare expenses. Good luck on teaching those preschoolers. They will be pro's with You on their teaching team! God Blesses! Sandy

Well Yeah sure I will look but shopping isn't my thing since I seem to have far more going out than I really have in. The in has dwindled to a negative number but I keep on trying. I guess I will just say, I must need more venting and I pray You are getting it Yourself somehow since I know how deep it has dropped me into the bucket. I feel like I am out the bottom myself. I say send the info I promise nothing, that way there is no disappointment. Thanks for responding. God Blesses! I hope Your hubby has time for You all soon from some better deal since I hate to see anyone basically ignored. He may earn it but when Your all alone, I know that gets OLD FAST. I live with my hubby and he sleeps here about every night (camps quite often), however I couldn't express how alone I am. We are 800 miles from home (born and raised, family area) and I cannot see burdening anyone with my need to converse and be cared about. Especially since it seems like the farther I get from him the farther he stays from me. He works, and volunteers so much, that I am so depressed I am not even sure venting would help much anymore, although I know it does some. I try to just keep on keeping on. My kids are older though so they don't even seem to care any at all. I know they do but have a life of their own. I try not to let depression spread, I know it can all to well. God Blesses!

I'm going to send you my blog via pm but I wanted to reply to your message. You sound so sad and down that my heart hurt for you! How long have you felt this way? Have you told your husband and children how you feel? Do you have any close friends to talk to and just hang out with? Yes, I'm ready for my husbands contract job to be over but not as much as he is. He hates being away from us and when he comes home (he was just home this weekend) he puts off going back. He was supposed to be at work at 7:00 am this morning but he didn't leave home until 10:00 and it's 4 1/2 hours away. Can't wait for it to be over. I really hope things start to look up for you. I hope you have someone that you can talk to. Please take care. Stef

ok so I got lost for days, even a month, between my computer not working well and my debts seeming to compound. It doesn't matter much anyways. Same _hit different day. Anyways I either did what I said I would or didn't, and showed up back since I am here and I don't see any link in Your profile, and I still think I need to try to keep adding links in my profile since I haven't gotten them on there. So social or not, I probably am not but it might be worth a try. So I will add You as a friend and maybe You can pm me then instead and I can look if I am able to keep up better now. God Blesses!