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some lines need to said out loud, but through the time I learned to make my voice as small as possible..I couldn't risk the fact of saying out loud what I really feel for you..for I fear that you run away again from me..ironic isn't it...i didn't actually say a word..but you still run away from me. you never said good-bye but I feel like there's was no need for it coz ur not gonna stay anyway--as a fact that is really given. I'm not sure why do we found each other as they say each person has a meaning in your life. I actually have found the reason why we met..and parted..and that time in my life should have probably ended now..but this is feeling is like a splinter on my skin..and that I can't do without it. What am I supposed to do when you're out there doing you're part and I'm here making a life of my own. yes, we have different worlds now..and assuming that my life now is running the way it should be...damn...if you are just a part of my past..then why do every decision that I make in my life concerns you... I have a job that holds me down..ive got a family that loves me unconditionally..I go where I want to...I've got friends that keeps me on my toes..my financials are ok (I think hehe)..I'm supposed to be a happy person now! I never wanted you in my life! I have never asked from you.and I was glad the madness ended already. My world is now coordinated with each other. I am fine without you. I am eating right, I can still breathe, I still receive my paycheck and I still do things normally. what the hell is wrong still that I have to right this down..given the fact that I am still in love with you...it doesn't matter anymore because I am so done of wanting something that I can't have. I'm tired I guess..i dont give up things easily without a fight..and I did fought for you..in ways that I know how..but I guess its not enough...arrgh why am i witting this down? maybe just to get it off my chest or the many discussions in my head that needs a concrete organization, ayt? or no.