5 years ago... an open letter of mine!

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i have been looking on some of my emails and i found this one and it was written 5 years ago. i cant believe how time flies... how my life was back then... how i am lost then i found myself. i am always open on how i'm feeling and been honest to my self as well. anyway, to make this a discussion. have you ever look back to your stuff and read it again or just plain look at it and realized how time changes since then. love to hear your stories. good night! [i]3yrs ago,, i was in search,,, searching for something i am not even sure what... then you came, wow! what a strike! you give me this song and i feel it not only describes how you feel but mine as well. yes, people think im crazy,, we're crazy! no such thing do really exist... maybe it's true,,, maybe it's not... i cant prove anything about everything to all nor can i force them to believe, as i for one (so are you) can only testify with it and just like you told me,, why would it matter when we know the truth! we dont have a perfect relationship but ours is much better than most that i have known. i am always grateful that you're my bestfriend as well... i have chatted with a friend who is older than me (very old than me,, lol) and he have an idea that i am such a butt head... can you believe that? im sure you will! haha i told him, most people tend to blame others for their own mistakes, for some reason they seem to wall themselves when reality hits them hard. sad but it really happens! i told him i feel that is one great aspect that you and i have.. we are both aware of what we are doing and how much it can affect not just us but as well as the others.... i told him, people behave in a manner that NOBODY can identify not unless that person opens up his heart and say every minute detail just to express himself... even so,,, that person's reasonings will never gonna be the same as yours.. and all you can do is accept and respect... he says that's not how life works and i am completely a cocky person... i say that is a fact in my life and i am not defining his life but mine... i told him that we always give reasons that will never point directly to us.. we always have excuses... we always have something or somebody to blame at... and even if you provided reasonings that is acceptable to a kid,, it is not valid coz his way or no way... then he says i am such a CLOSE MINDED person... say what??????????????? i told him,, im the one who is not giving a FINITE answer but HIM,,, i told him to reason out,, see other angle,,, analyzed different perspective... so NOW that is called CLOSE... wow!!! so what is open? then i see how we are... how we always have different ideas about almost everything but we never argue about something big or small.. we only give ideas and opinions and yes you're smart but i can say i am wise. and yes i am young but i have seen life maybe not as OTHERS see it... but great enough for me to learn how to really love and understand and respect. i told him that's what we have,,, that despite our differences we give love, respect and accept... i wish world can do the same... can you imagine a place where people have different views YET manage to live together peacefully and with so much love in their hearts.. now that is called CRAZY LOVE.... you always see logic behind almost everything,,, and i must agree i will NEVER ever win in every discussion we have... but you have to admit,, my thoughts most of the time never crosses yours coz i see it differently than yours... i love to ask you questions,, i feel like a little kid who is very eager to know,, yet still have my own free will to decide... i love how you laugh at me with my thoughts and still manage to support me with all your heart and soul.. and you know i feel the same for you... i told that to my friend as well... and he thinks i am playing with his mind that i am acting like a shrink... proof only belongs to scientist,,, professionals... and i am not even close to that... but i know one thing... 3yrs ago i am just consider as person who knows anything BUT nothing!!!! but not to me... i am a complete person and that you made me WHOLE.... i love you with all of me...[/i]