This perpetual Human/Woman Dilemma

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Should you leave or should you stay? Would you or wouldn't you? Can or can't? In a relationship, we are often confronted with certain decisions once we become greatly troubled. I have sometimes thought of leaving, for some personal reasons that i would not call selfish but self-saving. But upon much pondering, i question myself if it is really self-saving when there are more than one person who will be greatly affected? I feel like doing a balancing act, walking on a tight rope, juggling like crazy when all i want is just to jump off but i could not because there are precious lives hanging on to me. Here are the details which might help you help me solve this dilemma which also could be yours: SO in love. Married, with kids. Loosing self in the process of giving too much to everyone but self. Loosing self esteem, having become someone i do not like. I still love him. And i know he loves me as much. It's just that we pretend to see eye to eye, but we really are two people of different, and opposite poles. If i leave, it would break my heart. But now, staying here, is breaking both my body and slowly, my soul. If we break apart, our little children would break too. This is so much like the song, "Like the devil and the deep blue sea." Should you jump into the painful unknown? Or face the devil and fight?