ever felt that doing everything for love isn't really worth it anymore?
By BrianKomeini
@BrianKomeini (276)
Philippines
September 7, 2008 10:44pm CST
i spoke to him yesterday - the man who beat me to the woman i love. maybe that's pathetic.
i spoke to him while the woman i love was beside him. maybe that's heartbreaking.
all the while i told him to make her happy, that may their love last for years, and i did this because this will make the woman i love happy. maybe the most painful thing a man should endure.
i could still remember how i did things for her in spite of the possibilities just to make her happy. walked more than a mile to her house just to say sorry. brought her food even if were miles apart and it was 3 in the morning. used to let her hug me when she's so sad because that man was hurting him. broke my schedules just to make sure i was there beside her when she was crying.
and here i am, finding myself broken into a thousand pieces still just to make her happy. a thousand pieces , and a hundred more that will never be found because the wind will blow them away - making sure that i will never be the same again.
and i found myself asking if it's still worth it anymore..
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10 responses
@rosedust82 (2066)
• Philippines
8 Sep 08
You must be really hurting right now. I can't blame you since you did everything for the girl to love you back, literally being the martyr "friend". You played a very difficult part and ended up on the losing end. I just wish the girl you love would realize that she's letting go of a really great guy. You seem that type to me. If she has chosen the other guy, then the best thing would be to distance yourself from the girl and let things be. You deserve a lot more than that.
Yes, you'll feel pain for now but in the future, you'll be able to find someone who truly deserves your love... someone who'd do the same things that you are doing for this girl. someone who will be able to appreciate the things that you do for her. Maybe this is just a test to see how enduring you are. When you do get to meet "the one" you'll just laugh this moment off. Cheer up. Life will get better. Trust Him and yourself.
@BrianKomeini (276)
• Philippines
8 Sep 08
uhm...if you really want to find out if i really are that guy, i'd love to know you more too...and maybe you're that special someone that's really meant for me...
but i guess you can't be too trusting in guys you may find in the net. but rest assured that i could be trusted. i really wish i could get to know you more..
@ehlsie (730)
• Philippines
8 Sep 08
wow...you've done a lot to the girl you love...but you're being unfair to your self.For all the things you've done to her, he still not yours...And the reality is the girl treat you as her bestfriend. I know you love the girl that much but is your love for her really worth?are you still pursue your love to her even without love in return? I think you must accept the reality.Don't hurt your self to much.It's not fair.For sure there will be a girl whose worth your love for... i had that before.I do everything for my ex-boyfriend. Even sometimes he beat me,it's ok i just understand him and make our relationship work...He done lots of mistakes on me but i forgive him because i love him..But one day i realize, i do deserve this?After all the things i've done to him, do i deserve to treated like this...I found myself thinking about everything that happened...and i realized in the end, I'm not worth it...so I used to let go him even i really love him just to be fair to my self..I rather let go him and be hurt than, loving him, having a relationship with him but he still hurting me...
just be fair...Do what you think is right...weigh everything that happens to you...it's not the end, we must move on...Remeber that some people, walk in our life, some stay and some are just passing by....and we should learn to let go...
happy mylotters!
@BrianKomeini (276)
• Philippines
8 Sep 08
well, i wished YOU were my girlfriend - the last thing i want to know is that there's a woman out there being unloved by someone who doesn't know how to treat the person that's supposed to be the most important woman in his life.
love is about love. it isn't about being fair - it's always about making sure that love is being felt and by that it means making sure that two people are together happily in each other's company.
i'll be moving on. count on that.
@rogue13xmen13 (14402)
• United States
8 Sep 08
I know how you feel. I feel like nothing I ever do, or have ever done, is ever enough for my boyfriend, and I love him more than anyone can ever know. Hell, I would die for him if that is what I have to do, and yet, somehow, I feel like I am less than he is, smaller, less intelligent... he does not beat me or treat me badly if that is what anyone on here is thinking. I just cannot seem to be the woman that I want to be when I am around him. I feel like I am not the woman that he first met, or that I am not the woman that he should have. Why does he love me? Why did I fall in love with him? What does he see in me?
@shana123 (2095)
• India
8 Sep 08
I understand that your love is true.. but you must not get carried away as she is not going to come back to you she is already committed to someone now this point of time you should make up yourself to move away and live a happy life i know how hard it is to practice but then what your going to gain if your going to be behind her and making her happy everytime you help her , everytime you make her smile you just feel you want her and get broken each and everytime instead when you move away from her surely you can come out of it and you can stand firm and build your future..
@austere (2812)
• Philippines
8 Sep 08
you mut be very sad..and lonely and hurting.. but cheer up my friend.. you deserve better.. i have been in a more or less the same situation that you are in right now.. i was head over heels inlove with a guy who was not able to reciprocate back my feelings..there was never "us" not officially but we act like we have a real relationship.. but he cannot commit it with me.. i have given up everything for him.. to the point that my parents are so mad, they wouldnt want to spend for my college education.. but i realized, we are going nowhere and there is no use giving up something for somebody who's not worth it.. i let go.. and i was happier.. i still cry and i kept on praying that someday i'll meet somebody who could reciprocate back my feelings.. and i met my boyfriend now.. i met him after that not so happy experience in my life.. and we are together for almost 3 years now.. and i have never been this happy.. it's like God answered my prayer so fast!
@aize003 (225)
• Philippines
8 Sep 08
I used to feel that way when i'm still with my ex fiancee. we've been together for 5 yrs..i gave up everything just to make him happy..i stayed away to my friends coz he doesn't like them..he wanted me all by himself.. eventually i got fed up..and broke up with him..
@andak2007 (3229)
• Philippines
8 Sep 08
that woman is so lucky to have a loving man like you but then again you can never teach the heart whom to love...so it is really hopeless for you...so give up on her now...so that you won't feel the pain anymore...maybe stay away for a while so that you won't see her everyday...and maybe time will heal your broken heart and start to love again..there is someone out there that is really meant for you..just be patient and wait a while.
@sunshineprincess (20)
• Philippines
8 Sep 08
i admire your courage brian. its so nice to hear that there guys willing to give it all for love. but saddened that one you love cant see all the effort and work you doing for her. but i believe that when you love a person you dont need to expect to her to love you in return. if you are happy doing those heroic things to her, beat it! but if you feel that your hurting then its time to move on.. walk away and be strong to accept that you are not meant for each other. loving is being happy so when your hurting now then maybe its not love anymore.