A Change of Thought And My New Major.

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When I attended High-School through out the late 90's, I frantically went around and asked what my friends were going to do when they graduate; most moved on to higher education and some joined the military, but as for me at the time, I wasn't sure what I wanted to do. I didn't foresee my purpose (mind you I wasn't an obedient student) and I wasn't encouraged a certain path to success. All along I thought I was an idiot: incapable of learning and not so well of digesting everything I was taught. And I looked at my friends who were already accepted in college; that were in all the honors classes; I looked at them under the guise of jealousy. These guys were smarter and will probably live a comfortable life. So after graduation, I decided to join the Navy, which was my first step to a reasonable lifestyle. During my four years, I experienced the utmost training of obedience and discipline, but at the same time I was given valuable-real world training; I was an electronics technician. During our mission throughout the Indian Ocean, I've never felt so much pride and motivation by helping fighter pilots make it back to the flight deck safely. So in other words, I was working 7 days a week and at least 12 hours a day--at least. Money at the time didn't matter, because we were rewarded by merit and rank. Within that community I've learned that an individual can strive for a principle that is beyond money, which is honor and dedication of ones country; for me it was the United States. When I finally graduated from the NAVY, I decided to move on to higher education. My major was electrical engineering and I couldn't wait to study in that department, but I had to get these stupid prerequisites that I didn't pay attention to in High-school. It was my first year in college and I took American History (boring) and World History (boring). I asked my-self, why are these classes required for electrical engineering? But then something happened to me towards the end of that semester; something very deep and profound. I became more thoughtful and more open minded. I was no longer the Christian conservative and the Democratic spectator. After asking real questions and reading more about history; I've become more of a political analyst-a person who seeks truth and absolute truth. After-all I wasn't the obedient kid in High-School who digested everything the history teacher said, but I was the regimented sailor who believed every mission is supported by good politicians-supported by God. My years in college has never been so valuable to me; I never was so concerned about current affairs, the sciences and most of all my purpose! I came to the conclusion that I'm passionate about the truth and I'll do anything in my power to seek it. My major was electrical engineering and of course like many college students, you need to find a part-time job with tuition reimbursement; so I'm working at UPS. I applied my "can do attitude" Navy style, but only for a short time until I realized that this corporation only recognizes money and wealth rather than the merit and hard work of the individual; all workers are dispensable and therefore is considered as commodity. I figured this greed and money hogging notion of corporatism will be part of everyones lives; it's what we were taught in highschool, it's what we perceive through the media. To earn more and stop at nothing to take, even if it's in the name of your God. My new major is Mathematics; it deals with truth and at some times absolute truth, which is our primary goal. We use reason and logic more than we do in faith. And as my practice in logic grew stronger my faith grew weaker and finally I've become an Atheist and a libertarian socialist. I believe in human rights and the freedom of speech and thought. I have opinions that are so far away from my friends who graduated with honors. I became aware and knowledgeable on international law and politics. I my passion for Mathematics grew. For someone who thought he was dumb throughout highschool turned out to be o.k and after my class reunion a couple of months ago; nobody knew what was going on in politics (global mostly) nobody didn't care, all they cared about was what they were taught in Highschool and through out higher education and church---to be obedient--don't ask any questions--work and shut up. It turns out that the better grades you had in highschool the more your being indoctrinated and the majors you've studied throughout college that promised you a great financial future is merely corporate propaganda. I was lucky that I was the dumb kid, the rebel who didn't care much about Government indoctrination. I am the mathematician, the logician a person who recognizes fairness as goodness and most of all a human being.