Do you believe in Soul Mates, Fate and Destiny?

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Now I know what your thinking, these three things are just child hood dreams created by fairy tales. After what I have seen so far, in the last six months I am starting to believe otherwise. Heres my story and the situation I amd faced at hand. Six months ago, I was sitting at my pc, bored out of my mind. As usual there was nothing on TV, worth watching. I was also feeling kind of lonely. Some thing in the back of my mind suggested that I should search MMORPG's. While I love rpg games such as Zelda I figured you know what why not. I was browsing the list of popular games. I seen one in the list, that first caught my eye. It was Endless Online. It's pretty much a virtual world where anything is possible. At first I passed it and went a few pages ahead. Something kept digging at me telling me over and over to go back, to endless. So I said what the heck and I did. The first character I had created was a male character, I did this because I figured, where the players were real ppl, guys wouldn't bother me as I was not looking for a relationship, and with endless you can actually marry other players on the game. As I was trying to figure out how to play the game(To be honest I didn't have a clue what it was I was suppose to do.) I ended up in this hidden underwater place, called Atlantis. I wasn't that high of a level and began attacking a Teawk, a pinkish jellyfish type of monster. I had no idea how strong it was and it began chasing me. A guy, who was obviously a much higher level then I was concidering the equipment he had, laughed at me as the teawk killed me. I did not forget the name of that character, as for some reason he made me so irritated I wanted to smack him upside his pixel head. Later that same day, I ran into another character dressed as a grim reaper. He was very polite and asked me to join a guild, I refused and walked away leaving him there without so much as a goodbye. The way I walked away from that reaper kept digging at me, why was I so rude to him. There was just something about that reaper, that interested me more then anyone else, I had came accross on that game. It got to the point where I was going to go looking for him, but realized he would never even give me the time of day, thinking I was a guy. So I did the only thing that made since, I created a girl character and deleted the original. Once I finished the trainer, I returned to the spot I had last seen him, though it seemed hopeless, as the reaper was no where to be found. Something told me to head to the nearest town I knew of that time, and search for a guild. As I was looking I noticed a reaper had walked in behind me, and when I looked sure enough it was the very same reaper I had met earlier that day, with my original character. Once again he asked, me to join his guild, and my first response was another flat out no. He began working his charm this time, instead of just standing there after my response. He instantly made me laugh, which made me decide what the heck and I joined his guild. He told me of a maze, that took a long time to do, but it would level you from level's 1-3. He said, he was on his way there to guide others, and wanted to know if I wanted to come along, I agreed. Now as others were there I knew nothing about this mystery reaper and we never talked much other then what directions to go in the maze. Strangely I felt very comfortable around this mystery guy, and did rather well going through the maze, as long as he was the one in front of me guiding me. If someone else in the party got between us, I would become all thumbs and end up messing up extremely. Yet, he would never leave, and waited until I got it right before moving on. My connection was bad, and I would disconnect alot. Even still he would not leave and often I would log back in and find he had lead the others to the next section, but waited for me to return. Finally it took twice the normal time, getting the group through, due to my screw ups and disconnects. What did I, the stupid Newbie with no brain do? Instead of going out the exit I re entered the maze! He became shocked and told me I had to go back through the maze to get out. I couldn't believe it I didn't know the way. However, instead of leaving me there like anyone else. He claimed it would haunt him forever, as he was the one who brought me there in the first place. He re entered the maze and guided me back through. This whole time, in the maze with him, like the first I felt a unexplainable connection to the person on the other side, controling him and I never even knew so much as his name. That soon changed as that night, we sat for a very long time talking about alot of things. We realized we had alot of things in common, or very simular. It was almost as if it was a mirrored version of one another. The downside was that he lived all the way in England while I was in North America. We then exchanged facebook profiles. He was nervous to show me his, and said he had a few moments left with me before I ran for the hills. I was a little scared about why, till I seen him. There wasn't anything wrong with him, he was very attractive. Which scared me as I have low self esteem. When he checked mine, I was scared he would go running for the hills. Though he too, didn't seem to worry too much on those things. Thats when I found out his main was a higher level, and not only was he a higher level, but the same character I had a run in with in Atlantis. Even still soon after that we hit it off, and tried a LDR off the game. He even married my character with his main. Things went good for a while, though shortly afterward, he brought the LDR, to a hault, said he just couldn't do it. At first I was very crushed, and tried to avoid him, but it seemed everywhere I was he would either log in unexpected, or show up, and vice versa. He stayed married to me on the game, and still seemed to care for me in the same way he always had. It had seemed he was trying to hide something, but his heart just wouldn't let him. Any other guy I met on there he found something wrong with. It was kind of cute, but it lead to questions I had to why that he just didn't want to answer. At the same time our other friends on the game where trying everything they could to fix us. Though like any couple, our issues were ours and ours alone, and the only ones that could fix us was him and I. It wasn't until my real life abusive ex, came on the game and we helped him with a quest that he divorced my character. Again I was crushed, and we fought, as our friends still tried to fix us. Finally when I said I had argeed to marry another friend, he went into jealous mode, and started saying things to turn me off of the guy. After a talk he and I tried to try again, yet so it seemed the issues were still there and once again caused another blow up between us. Once again, everywhere I turned he was there, and everywhere he turned I was there. This blow up though he informed me he didn't want to be involved with anyone, esspecially me. Yet even still after that, he was always at my side, he always spent time with me, and he was always there for me. Our friends claimed he still acted like he still loved me, and claimed he had told them many times he did. Though that never explained why, he refused to let things be, and give it another go. Finally months later a a weekend long fight/talk. The truth finally had come out that he did feel something but just couldn't because of the distance between us. So we agreed to come up with ways to close that distance. One being myself trying to get over to see him eventually. (something I normally wouldn't do but I have a feeling in my gut that not only can I trust him 100%, but I feel in my heart he is the one) Now just last week, I was telling him I would have to apply for a passport, but never having done so, before I had no idea on how to go about doing so. Finally I decided when I had the time, I would search it, there had to be something on the net that would give me something. I searched and came up with a blank. Today, my uncle had gone to check the mail, He handed me a envelope, and a piece of flyer junk mail, that looked at first like a special for the cable company. At second glance I looked at it, and seen in big read letters DONT FORGET beside it is a picture of a hand holding a passport, and beside it is contact information on how to apply! My mouth dropped. It was fate or something that was to show in my mail box at the time I was wondering about how ti get one. It seems that since day one a strong force has been right there guiding both of us, along this path we are slowly taking to each other. It was like fate was walking with us along our road to destiny. Though others have been trying to talk me out of taking the chance to go and see him, saying it dangerous, and he could really hurt me, or even kill me. I'm no child I know the risks involved in going to see someone you meet on line. My mind tells me what they are saying makes perfect sense. However you run the same risks, meeting people in life, walking down the street or even sitting in your own home. Its not like I'm going anytime soon, it could take a year, to 2 years before I am able to go. Thing is, as much as I know the risks, I was always told true love was worth the risk. My heart still tells me he is the one for me, and is telling me I must go to him. So, do you believe fate, is working out its destiny, to bring me my soul mate? Or should I tell him now way I'm coming to see you and live my life wondering if I turned my back on my only chance to be happy?