life is difficult for me
By lavender84
@lavender84 (8)
China
September 18, 2008 6:18am CST
Life won't be harder than now.Dream away every day.Alway in bad mood with too much sorrow.Nothing interest me,even life itself.How can a person's action and words make me so mad.'Cause i love him.But he can not love me all he can. We are together in one house,but i always feel we will separete some day.
Easily get angry with him, i hate him. I just wish to have a sweet home.
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4 responses
@giniaslim (21)
• United States
4 Nov 08
It sounds like you suffer from bipolar or depression. I understand where you are coming from when you say that you are alwaya mad at him. Do you ever wonder why you get mad at him?Do you ever sit back and think about the reasons? Have you taken the time to actually see if it is you who is causing the problem? Are you the reason that your home isn't sweet? This is the hardest part when trying to better yourself. You are the controller of your life, you have the control over your own happiness. If you think negative, then you will feel negative and you will want everything around you to have that same feel. you might want to re evaluate your situation and your inner being. Attempt to get a better understanding of who you are and what you want out of life.
@lavender84 (8)
• China
6 Nov 08
giniaslim,thank you for your words. certainly i know why i get mad at him. this is not our home but his home.that's the reason.
i'm a negtive person,it's very difficult for me to change.
@tapdancer (44)
• China
13 Oct 08
If you still stay at home, please go out. then you can find everything is happy, that means you need to jump from the atomosphere and let those sorrow behind. Even you may not think your issue in a week and then you will find you have a new though for those things, you can calm down and have a better communicaiton with him.
@lavender84 (8)
• China
6 Nov 08
the more time i stay with him the worse it makes.it seems that he won't do as i expect. i always stay in the house in weekend,seldom go out. i like play with children.they are so lovely and innocence. the sociaty is full of hypocrisy.
@lilaclady (28207)
• Australia
18 Sep 08
Oh lavender life is so complicated I know, you must think just how short life is and start looking for simple things to be grateful for...its good that you have come into Mylot there are a lot of happy people here so that is something for you to start with, join in and just try to be happy ans see there are good things all around you...smile and be happy...
@lavender84 (8)
• China
19 Sep 08
i signed up mylot maybe several months ago,i really wish to make friends there.
One reason i'm not alway happy is that i have few friends,and i wish to spend most time with him,but he has his own work and friends.
@callcenterchick (94)
•
18 Sep 08
Its a implicated situation..... you love him but you don't know why he is like that the answer that i have to you is give your time and space. make him realize that your also special...
are you still contented with your relationship?
@lavender84 (8)
• China
19 Sep 08
i'm not content with our relationship.
i may give myself time and space to think it over.
