on the contemplation of suicide

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I don't know if this would be the right area to discuss such topics. I could not care much anyway. I always have this deep yearning to kill myself whenever when I get depressed. The feelings of being alone and boredom are sometimes too much that in my mind, I picture out some ways of killing myself. Some might be grissly and macabre (like running more than 100 mph on a freeway and crash head-on to a truck, jumping of the highest building I can find, impaling myself on sharp woods, and so the list goes on) but what the hell, as long as my very existence ends, any way of dying is fine with me. I always let out a deep sigh why at eveyrthing I do, I just can't seem to make a connection with people. I just seems that the people around me have walls around me (or it could me whose having a wall around me). I just want to end my misery. I'm not out of it yet.