does previous fights effect the relations?

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hello all those lovely souls there... i have a situation... i had a fight with my husban almost 6 months ago... he was very enraged... and he scolded me very badly.. plus he made a comment on me which i'm unbale to forget... he said if a person does not looks good, she should be of good nature, then she is acceptable... i was so much hurt... i was hurt to that extent taht i spend whole night crying, and the next day i just could not stop my self from crying... and i wished and prayed that i die... altough my husband realised just after 5 mins what he has said, he apologosed that night, and the next day contionously... he kept on apologising....but i could not stop my self from crying...i felt so bad, lonely and worthless.... let me tell you people, that i'm an average looking girl, with a dark complexion, which is thaught to be very bad in our damn society... altough i have not part in creating myself, yet i'm blamed of been ugly and dark... i never axpected this sort of comment from my husband.. because i am his wife because he choose me... and proposed to me.... he always feels sorry for that comment, and he gives me extra love and attention....hes does eveything he can to cover up for that....but i can not forget it... when ever he touches me and says whispers of enderment in my ears... i do not beleive him.. when ever he appreciates me... says that i'm looking beautiful, i do not beleive him... i feel uncomfortable when he appreciates my looks... when ever he appreciates me..those previous comments come into my mind... what should i do? why i am unable to beleive him... and why that one comment haunts me so much??? do you people have such experience in your life, that only one sentence spoiled your life??? is there anyway i can make my life better, coz i think that the DAMAGE IS DONE.... no words and gestures can mend them.. what you people think???